Sitting down at this hour of time..Thinking of a question..

What is love all about?
Seeing the people around me, getting hurt by this 'love'

Everytime looking at my parents and dramas, i believe that love is something sweet and happy. Although sometimes, there will be tearing and sad times, but it is overall sweet and happy.

But seeing the people around me now, they are all tearing because of it.
Reading XXX's blog, makes me know that love can change so fast.
In the first minute, you are counting down to everything you have, mention the person you always admire.
But in the next minute, after you have gotten into a fight, you start to walk further and further away from her... You start to stop mentioning her...

And in the next minute, you start to be cold to her, not even noticing her presence.
What is this? You call this love from the beginning?

Reading the entries over this, i started to feel that she is really someone who is pitiful.
Why cant she let go of him?
Why does she have to hold so tight onto him even though she knows that he cannot make back to him?
Although she knows that, it is not coming back, why is she having the hope?
Can i say, she is really being stupid in this relationship?

Being someone who have never been in one before,i started to wonder.. :
What is love all about?
I just cannot get an answer out of it...

Is it because I am too young to understand it?
Or is it, i am just telling myself not to understand it?

I hope that i could understand it, but in fact, i hope it will not appear into my life.
People think I am despo over it, but seriously, i dun really care about it..
People think I am waiting and waiting.. But i dun really wait. Because i know, even though i wait, my Prince Charming will never come..
People think I am just using this as a trick... But no one knows how i really am..

I remember telling some of my closest friend that, i want to be a nun next time.. maybe..
Or maybe i would do it?

Being emo at the middle of the night, is really something unusual i think...

Well, maybe something/someone could help me figure it out?!

Lots of love,
SiSi

P.S Had the most weirdest dream ever last night.
It is sweet, yet, frightening..
I could not see the person's feature, but this is the first time, my heart is beating so fast.
Who is it? And what kind of power does that person have?