ARGHHH.. i am so having so much craving for food ONCE AGAIN!!

WHY?!?!?!

I am stressed.. come on..
For wad???!!!

Lets see what i am having on my table right now...
1. Notebooks
2. Proposals
3. Reports
4. Theory Hwk
5. Letters
6. Dictationary...

Why cant my holiday filled with happiness and fun?
Why do i have to do all these boring things?!

ARGHHH....

AND WHEN CAN I CLEAR ALL THESE?!
THIS WEEK?!
NEXT WEKK?!

i doubted... hais..


And recently.. my life is in a mess.. Have been neglectin a lot of things.. i really dun know if i should go and solve it or not...

But all i know is.. i dun have the courage to go face this... I am afraid that it might hurt someone badly...

Having to this resort is not being i dun have the feelings anymore..
I am doing this because I felt that my confidence is all gone...

I want to find my confidence back.. and also to be fair...
I know that I will not be able to be fair.. So i decided to let it go..
No matter how much pain i am having.. I will still hold it on by myself...

To anomyous(you should know?!)

Doing that is not what i really want...
Maybe it could be really hurt at the beginning..
But i am sure time can help to get over it...

But the only i can confirm is.. the feeling, will NEVER change...
Pls trust this sentence...

And also.. I hope that... we could get back as good as new..
I really really hope that... but the courage of me doing it.. is not there at all...

I am so sorry if i have hurt you..
Right now, I am still feeling guilty.. VERY guilty..
Although many people say.. dun be.. there is not point of being guilty with what you have done.. just go with it.. and it will end..

But the guilt comes because you made me felt like.. I am the most evil person IN THE WHOLE WORLD!

But the only thing i can do is.. to apologise to you...
But i dun dare to say it in front of you.. because i dun have the confident and courage to hear the reply from you...

Lots of love,
SiSi