Yup.. Another Sunday is coming...
Tomorrow, I am going for work again....
Actually, I am looking for the end of the day....

I just hate the people I am working with recently.
Although I am used to the adult world, but the people I work with is totally different from who i am working with now.. HAIS..

Anyway, today went for my sister's PTM, it went well.
In fact, my sister is topping in class and top 20 in school..
WAY TO GO GIRL!!!

I hope she could keep up the good work...^^

So after that, went to meet Kimiko... She came back from Japan not long ago, and didnt managed to celebrate birthday with me.. So we went to her side and she bought a cake for me..


Chocolate flavour.. YEAH~ HAHA....
She still remembers that i like heart shape.. HAHA..
Chatted for a while about some random things and went for Vivo, where we came across a totally fab shop..


The inside looks quite glam.. HAHA..

Hmm.. before i end.. maybe i should put my own picture up?
HAHA..
I am loving myself once again.. HAIS.. hopeless me...


At least Kimiko said i am becaming more and more KAWAII?!
HAHA..


Alright.. got to go search for a shorts for tomorrow.. so as to please that idiot and stupid boss.. HAIS..

WHO CAN SEDUCE MY BOSS FOR ME?!

Lots of love,
SiSi
Sitting down at this hour of time..Thinking of a question..

What is love all about?
Seeing the people around me, getting hurt by this 'love'

Everytime looking at my parents and dramas, i believe that love is something sweet and happy. Although sometimes, there will be tearing and sad times, but it is overall sweet and happy.

But seeing the people around me now, they are all tearing because of it.
Reading XXX's blog, makes me know that love can change so fast.
In the first minute, you are counting down to everything you have, mention the person you always admire.
But in the next minute, after you have gotten into a fight, you start to walk further and further away from her... You start to stop mentioning her...

And in the next minute, you start to be cold to her, not even noticing her presence.
What is this? You call this love from the beginning?

Reading the entries over this, i started to feel that she is really someone who is pitiful.
Why cant she let go of him?
Why does she have to hold so tight onto him even though she knows that he cannot make back to him?
Although she knows that, it is not coming back, why is she having the hope?
Can i say, she is really being stupid in this relationship?

Being someone who have never been in one before,i started to wonder.. :
What is love all about?
I just cannot get an answer out of it...

Is it because I am too young to understand it?
Or is it, i am just telling myself not to understand it?

I hope that i could understand it, but in fact, i hope it will not appear into my life.
People think I am despo over it, but seriously, i dun really care about it..
People think I am waiting and waiting.. But i dun really wait. Because i know, even though i wait, my Prince Charming will never come..
People think I am just using this as a trick... But no one knows how i really am..

I remember telling some of my closest friend that, i want to be a nun next time.. maybe..
Or maybe i would do it?

Being emo at the middle of the night, is really something unusual i think...

Well, maybe something/someone could help me figure it out?!

Lots of love,
SiSi

P.S Had the most weirdest dream ever last night.
It is sweet, yet, frightening..
I could not see the person's feature, but this is the first time, my heart is beating so fast.
Who is it? And what kind of power does that person have?
Exam shedule is out already!!



Looking at the time and the dates, I am starting to get stressed.
I think my CAD and Mechanics can still do alright..
BUT MY ELECTRONICS IS A DEFINITE NO NO!!!

I practically dun understand anything for that module.. How can i pass? HAIS..
I am so giving up!!

Never mind.. I definitely will have someone to save me up...*look up in my phonebook*
Hmm.. i am still thinking if i should touch on that person.. HAHA..
maybe i should?!

Elaine.. if i did.. pls dun kill me.. LOLL?!

HAHA..
i am being mad.. ok.. have to jiayou for my CAD NOW~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
I lost one night of sleep to rush out the slides and the evalution.
Of course, i would like to thank Ai-kun for helping me out.. ARIGATOU~~ TASUKETE!!!

Haha.. but the presentation went badly.. I almost stambered at every words that I am speaking.. I cannot think properly.. AT ALL!!

I think i score pretty badly cuz of that.. But no one knows all the others are my work.. I think...

Anyway, Had electronics lessons after IDEAS...
THe starting was still understandable..
But when it comes to behind.. Everything went 'HUH?'
Being in such a situation, I decided to nap for a while, since it is like not being able to be understanded..

But Esther and Elaine are like playing with me.. Cuz i wore something new to school yesterday..
The one which i bought from the pasar malam with Esther that day..
Ok.. I looks quite alright.. Mature and lady-like i think..
It is totally not my style..

Ok.. during lunch, had Subway...
Not bad.. first time eating... then we crapped for a little while.
After that.... went for CAD lesson, i was practically too tired, that i tried to listen to music to keep myself awake. But i juz cannot make it..
So i decided to nap for a while, and let Ajit call me later..
Well, that boy helped me out..

AJIT, THANK YOU~~~ LOLL...

so after that, i went for dance.. Met Samantha, Ben, Matin etc.. There is another girl's name which i totally dun know how to spell..
They are a bunch of nice kids.. LOLL..
But Ben is always making fun of me!
I know my hair is whipping him yesterday.. but he juz cannot stop saying me!! HMMPH!!
Oh.. luckily he cut his hair.. if not, i am so going to make fun of him in that pointy hairstyle.. LOLL..

So after dance, went to eat dinner with the girls.. Hais.. i practically 'dumped' Mandy for them.. LOLL.. juz that i cannot find Mandy after that alr.. MANDY, GOMENASAI!!

Later, i went home alone. I reached Lakeside station and took 98M home.. BUT..
i fell asleep on the bus.. and by the time i woke up, i am on my way to JE again.. HAIS..
i am so pathetic..
By the time i reach home, it is alr.... 10PM..
Hais...

So when i reach home, without further ado, i went straight... NOT TO BED.. HAHA...
i on-ed my computer and then go check my mails.. then go to bed..
FINALLY HAVE A GOOD SLEEP.. but i was being awakened at 6 plus.. cuz my sister's school have performance.. so i have to go with her.. since i am going in my mum's behalf.. tomorrow still have parents' meeting session..
SINCE WHEN I AM SO OLD?!
i think tomorrow, i wear professional a bit la.. LOLL..
haha..

Hais.. i wan to go back to sleep again.. so tired.. later, am going to chiong for CAD..
I am envying kids in uniforms..
They are having holiday starting from next week!!!
Ours is like.. next next wk? hais.. poor us..

BUT DANCE CAMP IS COMING!! YEAH~~
I am so looking forward to it..
Oh.. yesterday's dance.. I DANCED ALONE! But i still could not get the steps right.. maybe i should grab some guys to ask them to practice with me.. HAIS...

Lots of love,
SiSi
YEAHHH~~~ I managed to get a 9 hrs sleep! YESH~~~
I didnt managed to sleep for Monday night.. Cuz i am rushing my mother's thingy..
MUMMY, CAN I HAVE A BREAK PLEASE?!

Anyway.. While doing Mummy's thingy, I watched Drama with it..
A Taiwan ones... 败犬女王

Seriously, I feel that I am so like the girl in the show... HAIS...
But not so good, to have a boyfriend who looks so hot and handsome la! Haha..

Anyway, I am so tired on Tuesday.. But i managed force myself through the long and dreadful day..
Had an electronic test on that day.. I actually went out of the classroom after 15-20 mins.. HAHA..
And went over to the first floor and have a 30-mins sleep while waiting for the rest of people to finish their test.
After that, had lunch... Sitting in our original seat, having our heat tan.. seriously, when i am chewing my food, i can feel sweat rolling down.. HAIS...

Then had mechanics practical.. During time, I am being super duber emo... I dun know why.. haha..
Anyway... we finished our practical one hour later..!!!
That is like so fast! So i decided to stay with Elaine for the rest of the time.. since i have spanish class afterwards...
And AJIT they all are like so funny.. They wanted to go out to have fun.. So they were like pleading Elaine to let them off.. HAHA... should really see his expression.. LOLL...

I actually Slept in my SPANISH LESSON!!! NOt a long one la.. A short one la.. HAHA..
But i slept well.. HAHA.... And Yiwen and i are like.. playing? Having fun.. YEAH.. we had fun....

As for TODAY..
I went for dance...
Well.. there isnt a lot of people there in dance.. So i paired up with a guy there..
AND HE IS SAYING I AM A HELICOPTER!!!! hais.. cuz my hair always hit his sleeves.. WAD IS WRONG WITH THAT?!
Haha.. And the senior is laughing at me when i am dancing.. HAHA.. cuz i always have a weird dance move out.. HAHA..
And i also met new friends..
YATTA!!!

Anyway.. had a great practice today.. I am wondering if tomorrow, i will have a good practice or not..
Seriously.. can i say sth? But before i say.. I hope no one say me despo.. cuz this is juz opinion..
Dancing with guys or seniors, the feelings are totally different when dancing with a girl.. Cuz girls cannot lead well.. But for guys.. ya can~~ LOLL.. Anyway... i hope to learn dance FAST!!! i am so going to lose weight to get to the dancing clothes that i want!!! LOLLL...

HAHA..

Alright..
I am looking super forward to tomorrow's lesson..
I LOVE DANCE!!! YEAH~~~ LOLL>.<

Got to chiong for my project for the last time.. THEN.....
Go do my autoCAD..
tomorrow nid to hand in one lor!! KNS.. haha..

Lots of love,
SiSi
Has been rather moody today..

I think it is cuz of my cough and medicine...



When i stepped into the class, wanting to greet the whole class..

My voice cannot shot up.. And ended up in a funny and weird sound.. HAHA...

I lost my voice yesterday.. I am glad that i got it back....



Anyway, had a wonderful OC, without Constance picking on me cuz i am coughing..

And Ajit did a really good job in acting as Taufik.. HAHA....

Gabriel is another guy who is good at speech..

Ken(Keng) is rather sitting there acting cool, with the sunglasses..



HEY! THAT IS REALLY.... Qian Bian.. LOLL..

haha..



Anyway, everything went well, but after school, i turned moody again..

I guess it is every Monday, is my sorrowful day?



Ask almost the whole class to be there for me.. But kena rejected... 16 times?

Even Elaine also reject me.. HAIS...



I am really going to die soon..

When I am rejected by one person, I am already so sad, Now.... 16? HAIS.. i think I am in heaven with god.. LOLL...



Today.. is a new week.. And mummy and daddy are not back yet..

I think... it is the best? LOLL..



But when i gets moody, i have no one to talk to.. I have no one to cry to..

Well, expect.. my bolster? LOLL..



But.. this is not wad I want....

Maybe something more.... big? LOLL..



Alright.. got to study for my Electronic Test...

TOmorrow got lab?!!



THAT BLOODY LAB!!

I am thinking of getting an MC for it..

Cuz i am really unwell here.. HAHAs....



Lots of love,
SiSi
I AM BEING PETTY AGAIN!!!
i think..

Cuz.. seriously.. I got pissed again..
It took that person 3 hours to reply my sms....
And his answer is super attitude..
What have i done wrong?
I have explained like so many times.. He is still doing that..
WTH...

I feel like calling him and ask him wad is wrong with him..
But seriously dun know how to start..
Or maybe, i should just give silent treatment?
Yeah.. i think..

I am thinking.. my dream again is striking real...
I dreamt of that.. and the next day, it happens..
Maybe i should not sleep?

I used to love to dream.. but now.. NO!
I HATE IT!
cuz everytime i dream about bad things.. bad things will happen.. like wad it happen in the dream..
HAIS..

Or maybe i should get used to it?
I am sick..
I AM SERIOUSLY SICK!!!

HAis..

Lots of love,
SiSi
Another problem is up!!
Hais.. I find out that, ever since i am in poly, there are lota lota problems coming up...

So what is it about this time?
Hmmm.. people maybe laughing at me if they read this post...
They will be thinking that I am lying or joking.. cuz this is totally impossible..
But i have to say.. THIS IS THE TRUTH!! if you wanna believe, thanks.. if not, juz leave!

Anyway.. Overall, I nid to make up a guy, to act.. KNS...
WTH WAS THAT?!!!
How can i find?
Who can i find?

I am so pissed when that idiot call me last night..
Asking me to show him that guy.. WTH..
who is he to request to see?

HE HAS NO RIGHTS!!!!!

anyway.. I am so pissed that ... I didnt really eat dinner...
My tummy is now.. not good.. HAIS..

Anyway.. today went to Orchard.. And........
Went to Yunita's house.. WTH!
She is damn rich..
Ajit was like saying he is being stabbed again.. LOLL>.
but seriously.. Yunita's house is really nice..

I AM ENVYING YOU!!!

AHha..

I am so going to think wad to do for the idiot issue. HAIS..

So tired now..

Lots of love,
SiSi
This is the third time I have blogged.. SIAO ARH!!!
LOLL..

anyway.. being tagged by my dearest, dearest, 紀美子 Baby [ My Japanese girlfriend]
Yup.. It's in English.. Anyway.. her mum is a German.. that is why she still have a Japanese surname.. COOL?!
FYI!! the names inside maybe like.. quite common.. But i am lazy to put it the surnames.. So is like.. Maybe Benjamin Toh.. Tan.. But i juz put BENJAMIN.. cuz lots of people like to assume things.. WTH....
Alright.. shall continue.... 50 Little Secrets

• Who is your last text from?

Joshua

• Where was your default picture taken?

You mean which one? Phone one? HMMM.... In Japan

• Your relationship status?

Single... Waiting for my Mr. Right

• Have you ever lost a close friend?

YEAH.. juz last month

• What is your current mood

Emotionless

• How many siblings do you have?

Do you count not blood-related? If counting.. more than 3

• What was your brother(s)/sister(s) names?

Keng[god-brother], Kamiko[god-sister], Yuya [god-brother]... etc

• Where do you wish you were right now?

Hmmm.. doing project? In Orchard?

• Have a crazy side?

YEAH.. everyone has

• Ever had a near death experience?

Juz 2 days ago

• Something you do a lot?

Smiling all along.. but recently is emo-ing

• Angry with anyone/thing?

Yeah.. but trying to get over it.. Somewhere there....

• What's stopping you from going for the person you like?

Afraid of being rejected... And ended up not being friends anymore

• When was the last time you cried?

On.... Tuesday

• Is there anyone you would do anything for?

All my friends whom I trust

• What do you think about when you are falling asleep?

Thinking about how to be a better person

• Who was the last person you talked on the phone?

Ermmmm.. Joshua??

• What is your favourite song?

Free by Yamada Yu

• What are you doing right now?

Doing this tag? And doing my AutoCAD

• Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

Kiki-chan bought it for me

• Have you kissed someone in the past week?

NOPE.. i am saving the kiss for my Mr. RIGHT

• Who is your friend that lives closest to you?

HMMM.. Azreen?

• Describe your life in one word?

Dramatic

• Who are you thinking of right now?

HMMMM..... Myself...[SHH.. secret.. cannot tell.. you go guess then]

• What should you be doing right now?

Going shopping? I m having a big craving for MP3...

• What are you listening to?

100%勇気 BY HSJ

• Who was the last person who gave you a hug?

HMM.. i haven being hugging PEOPLE for a long time.. WHO wants my hug? LOLL

• Who was the last person who yelled at you?

ERM.... Ajit?

• Do you act differently around the person you like?

I think so.. I will blush.. I will talk crap... LOLL

• What is your natural hair colour?

BLACK

• Who was the last person to make you laugh?

Hmmm.. really laughing or faking laugh? Hmmm.. the same person la..

• Who was the last person to make you sad?

Hmmm.. the girlfriend who put words into my mouth

• What do you hear?

Hearing music and my keyboard tapping

• Is your hair curly or straight?

Wavey.. I think.. it is born natural

• Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?

Hmm.. i think no...

• Do you have a best friend?

BEST... hmm.. i think have... no sure though...

• Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?

Yesterday during dancing..

• Do you use smiley faces on the computer?

Seldom using it

• Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

NOPE!

• Are you happy with life right now?

I think so.. Blessed with friends

• Are you currently jealous?

I think no.. Why would i?

• What jewellery are you currently wearing?

Nothing.. I dun wear it at home...

• What were you doing on Friday night?

TOnight? HMMM.... not sure.. haven reach yet... But last week.. I am thinking if I should be texting...

• Have you ever had your heartbroken?

Juz a few days ago.... Cuz being betrayed?

• Have you ever broken someone's heart?

I think so....

• Is there anyone you're really disappointed in right now?

YUP..

• What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?

Cuz i am really sick...

• HOw late did you stay up last night and why?

Last night was busy.. angrying? haha... and thinking why is it like this...

• Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?

I have never date before.. dun ask me this type of STUPID questions.. LOLL..

DONE!! Hey.. KIMIKO!! dun say i didnt do! All i can say is that.. I have already tried my best to do the most accurate ones...

Lots of love,
SiSi
Napped for a while.. Cuz having a serious headache....
Didnt have lunch at all.

But.. I dreamt of something, I would never want to dream...
I dreamt that my friends are scolding me, saying that I am a nuisance.
Is it true?

I dreamt that my friend saying that, I am always there, making him/her unable to have her own time. I am always there, when she/he doesnt want to see me.

I hope that is not true...
I have to admit.. I can be a really successful person when it comes to situations like project or anything regarding proposals. Cuz I have been trained since young.
But the only thing i am bad with is friendship and relationships.

And i dun know what and how to deal with them.. cuz I am really bad at noticing feelings and emotions...
I maybe selfish at times.. But it is because, I didnt get a direct reaction from a friend...

I hope this dream will not come back again...
And nightmare, will not be back again.......

御女様が好きそのタイポの男

私はここの御女様です。
誰かがそのタイポの男？

その夢、来てはない！！
駄目でしょ！

Lots of love,
SiSi
Hmmmm.... Recently got angry quite a number of times...
Let's see what happened.. Well.. I shall go to the bottom of it first..

1. A friend of mine, put words into my mouth and told another friend something THAT I NEVER SAY... I have 3 people to be proof that I didnt say anything...
And over this issue, I only told the 3 people who can help me to proof. Yet... Yesterday, she told others that I am accusing her for telling XXX that .....

COME ON~~ How could you know when I tell nobody? Dun tell me you hear this.. This is impossible.. Unless, you come to my house and insert a spy camera.

And also, another 2 or more people can proof that she said that!
So, tell me, who is the one talking crap now?

Frankly speaking.. I dun know what have i done to make that friend did that to me.
I help out whatever she wants me to help. But sometimes, it became a burden to me. But she just cannot seems to understand. AND I SERIOUSLY DUN KNOW WHY!!!

I could have ask about this situation in front of the everybody. And i can promise you.. If I do that, she is so not going to survive well. Cuz by that time, everyone knows that she is someone like that..
But... If i ask her privately, I dun think she will tell me the truth.

OK... NEXT...

POINT 2.. decided to delete it.. cuz....
I think there is no point saying.. NO POINT AT ALL!!

NO OFFENCE.. OK?

Never mind.. Shall wait till i m calm.. then i shall think about this matter...

Seriously.. Recently.. good things are not coming onto my way...
Bad things are coming one by one...
I hope this will go over soon..
YUP~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
YEAH.. chatted on MSN with a friend from Taiwan..
Remember the one that I say I met on the plane?

I cannot believe that... he is online in this hours.. LETS' SEE WAD WE TALK ABOUT OK?

XXX：你在做什麼?你要去哪裡打強?( What are you doing? Where are you going to rob this time?)
Me: 才怪!我吃飽飯沒事情做啊?( LOLL.. I have nothing better to do?)
XXX: 那你那麼遲了,還不睡覺,那又是要做什麼啊? ( Then, why are you not sleeping at this hour?)
Me: 想事情啦! ( Thinking somethings)
XXX: 是不是在想念我? ( Are you thinking about me?)
Me: 我吃飽飯了, 來想念你幹嘛? ( Why must I think about you? Nothing better to do?)
XXX: 好! 最近怎麼樣了? (Fine.. How are you recently?)
Me: 就這樣.你還想要怎麼樣? ( Just like this. Anymore?)
XXX: 班級裡面, 有沒有帥哥啊? ( In your class, is there any hottie?)
Me: 我班級裡面, 倒是沒有.可是, 別班的就有了. ( Mine.. there isnt.. But others may have)
XXX: 是不是真的啊? ( Serious?)
Me: 白癡!我騙你幹嘛?我無聊啊! ( Stupid! Why must I lie to you? I have nothing better to do?)
XXX: 你最近怎麼了? 怎麼開口閉口, 就是在罵人啊? ( What is wrong with you?? Always scolding me)
Me: 心情不好. 不要惹我. 否則, 我飛到台灣來找你算帳! ( Not in good mood. You better dun bully me.. If not, I am going to TAIWAN to kill you!)
XXX: 好啊! 來啊! 我可不會支付飛機票的錢喔!你自己找地方住喔! (Yeah.. sure.. no problem.. But I am not paying for the tickets here. And you have to find your own a place to stay in)
Me: 你這個沒有良心的! 如果你下一次來新加坡, 我就不理你了! ( You are being a beast! So, next time when you come to Singapore, I am not going to entertain you.)
XXX: 好! 對不起! 怎麼樣, 有沒有交男朋友? ( ALright.. Sorry. So.. any luck with guys?)
Me: 哪裡有那麼快的? ( Do youhave to be so fast?)
XXX: 那有沒有看到適合的人呢? ( Did you see anyone suitable?)
Me: 現在, 還沒有... 長的帥的.. 好像也就有一位. ( NOPE.. cuz there isnt any hot one.. But i saw one recently.)
XXX: 那麼可憐? ( So bad?)
Me: 可憐什麼? 沒有什麼好可憐的..反正都是同班的人.. 不會有火花的. 你不用睡覺了嗎? 精神那麼好? 如果是這樣的話, 去外面跑一圈然後再回來. ( Wad is it to be bad of? We are in the same class. there will not be any sparks. Hey.. You dun have to go to bed? So energetic, why dun you go out and run one round?)
XXX: 你這個小朋友, 怎麼這麼不會說話啊? 我在關心你呢! (You this little. Why are you talking like that? I am concerned about you!)
Me: 我也是在關心你啊! 要你早早睡覺, 這樣, 你就不會有黑眼圈. 這樣, 你就可以一直帥帥的啦! ( I am concerned about you too! I ask you to sleep early, so that you willnot have panda eyes! I am being nice!)
XXX:謝謝你喔~ 小妹妹! ( Thank you so much little girl)
Me: 不客氣喔~ 大帥哥! ( You are welcome.. Hottie)

XXX: 對了, 如果看到帥哥, 可不要昏倒了喔~ ( Hey! If you see any hottie.. dun faint)
Me: 才不會呢! 白癡, 再見了~ ( I wun! Nitez~)

Alright.. done..
AHA.. being a little rude today.. cuz i put busy status.. he still come bully me..
HAIS..

But he is a fine person anyway.. HAHA..
alright.. gtg.. BYUE~
XXX: 小笨蛋, 再見了~



Lots of love,
SiSi
It's.. 1.35 AM in the morning.. And I am still awake...
WHY?

Reason is.. I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!!!
YEAH~
Chuu KAWAIII!!!

Anyway, before i actually went over to change the blogskin, I went for some personality test.. And found out that all of the things being tested out are true..

I used to be someone who is really strong.. I seldom cry in front of anyone.. ESPECIALLY BOYS!!
But now, I started to show more and more about myself..
Is it a good thing? I seriously dun know...

I am always glad that.. During this saddy period, Elaine and Esther.. Nirija and almost all of the girls in my class is there for me..

I am really happy about it....
I know sometimes.. I am really someone who is in front and things like that..
But, i have some reasons to it...

Anyway.. Recently lots lots things happened.. and i seriously dun know what to do...
I am stressed.. YUP.. haha..
But.. Now, i have the courage to smile and go over it.. no matter what..
I want to get along with my friends..

Anyway.. tomorrow ESTHER is going to TAIWAN!!!

YOU BETTER BUY SOMETHING FOR ME!!
HAHA..

So tomorrow, i have to study hard.. cuz i am preparing notes for her..
I AM NOT GOING TO FOOL AROUND LE!!! YEAH!!

Oh.. last of all things..
I wanna apologise to my friends.. whom i have hurted..
I didnt mean to.. I am trying my best best to get back..
But i nid time.. Kay? I am sure, I can do it..
Of course, i hope you wil always hear me out, rather than juz hearing from others..
Kays?

Yup.. that is all...

Lots of love,
SiSi
I dun know why.. recently.. unhappy things juz come and go, come and go..

Well.... Backstabbers are coming into my life again..
But at least, i am happy to have friends who walked me out of it..

Last night, I was thinking...
Would anyone cry for me if i am dead?

Now, i think, there will be.. My friends....
I hope they do?
Haha...

Thank you guys so much for being there for me..
Although I get emo easily.. But.. I will get over it easily...

That is why.. I hope that.. you guy and girl.. Will STOP FIGHTING!
It hurts to see you 2 like this!

I think... Guy.. although you are not in the wrong, apologising to a girl, is sth guys should do...
If you do that, the girl will feel guilty about her action!
That is why....

But, since you dun wan.. juz nvm....

But i hope to see you 2 smiling! FOREVER AND EVER!!!

Love you people!!!

SiSi promise to be cheerful again..
SiSi promise not to do silly things...
SiSi promise to be laughing again.. no matter what happens. because i know friends will be there for me.
SiSi also promise to be with my friends, forever and ever.

Will you guys promise too?
I hope so too!

Juz came back from dance.. We learned more about Cha-Cha.. Cuz it is a recap lesson. So nth much.. Juz brush up on wad i learnt last Thursday...
Tomorrow is the actual one..
HAIS..
anyone from SP.. GUYS.. pls...
anyone will pair up with me?
I seriously, dun wan to pair with any random guys...
YA KNOW? IT IS EMBARRASSING!!! LOLL

Ok~~~
Gotta go~~

Lots of love,
SiSi



P.S PEOPLE.. PLS PUT DOWN YOUR NAME IF YOU ARE TAGGING.. AND NOT USE PASSERBY OR UNKNOWN.. YOUR PARENTS DIDNT NAME YOU THAT!!
SHOWING YOUR NAME, WILL HELP ME TO KNOW WHO I AM SPEAKING TO....

P.P.S I dun care if you know or not... Juz keep it in your heart.... I dun nid your comment.. If you dun show up your name, your taggy will not be entertained..

THANK YOU~~~
I am feeling a lot and a lot better...
Today....

I dun know why.. I feel bad about myself... I am emo.....
Today, met Joshua Tan, who is having the same class as me in the morning....
Then we went to class together...

When we stepped into the class, the whole class was cheering.. LOLL...

WE ARE NOT DATING!!! WE ARE JUST FRIENDSSS!!!

So later... I start to get emo as the time passes.. Cuz I am really tired...
Cuz... I didnt sleep well last night....

And also when Constance keep picking on me...
Constance: Iris, You seems to be pretty famous.
SiSi: HUH???!!

Shocking right? IT IS FROM JOSHUA TAN's CLASS!! WTH..
they say I am noisy..
HELLO?! I am not ok? I juz have a lot of question if i dun understand.... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ASKING QUESTIONS?!

Anyway... Thanks to a really nice friend who cheered me up when I am emo...
Although we knew each other a few days only.. but he is willing to be there for me..
THANKS BUDDY~~!!!

He actually was at AMK when i call him..
Then he went all the way back to JE cuz i was really sad and emo..
When i met him, his pose is like this...


I promise him that I am not going to show his face.. CUZ HE IS SHY!!!
Yeah.. He is from SP also.. can tell la.. from the shirt.. HAIZ..
Act cool wah.. Not bad wah....
haha...

I didnt know he is that funny...
We went to IMM... And he managed to let me eat something despite being so emo...
I had the roti bread, he had takoyaki..

I seduce him to eat.. LOLL>.
Is that the right word? LOLL..
haha...
OK.. this is not..

BUT HE PROMISED TO HELP ME SEDUCE MY BOSS!!!
He is going to do it.. isn't he?!

Eh.. show me you are a guy.. OK?
haha..

Anyway... went walking like mad.. haha..
Then when we were in Giant, we were like stupid people playing hide and seek.
I am like a little kid, trying to find my dad..
haha..

I nearly cried when i cannot find.. HAHA...
I thought I am lost.. I know.. I am a road idiot.. HAHA.. lu chi...
I ADMIT!!

but i dun wan to get lost in there....

After that... went over to buy ice blend cuz i am super thirsty...

I ended up playing with him on the way back.. I put my hand on the cup and put it on his face.. and he jumped up.. HAHA... STUPID!!!

He helped finish the rest when i cannot finish..
EH.. pay the rest of it leh.. DUN CHEAT MY MONEY! LOLL..

juz kidding...

To buddy: Hey! Thank you so so much for being there for me..
I am no longer emo now.. Next time you emo, call me ok? I am 24-7 standby de..
Yeah.. call me 7-11!! HAHA....

And.. I would try to use the trick you taught me today.. haha...
I hope it is useful.. HAHA.....

LOVE YA~~~~ as a fren.. dun anyhow think.. OK?

Hais.. youngsters now a days.. LOLL>. haha..
I AM COPYING AJIT!!
Haha.. nvm.. he never ask for copyright.. HAHA.. LOLL>. LAMER LEH ME!!!!

Alright.. have to get off le.. CUZ... i nid to go to bathe.. if not smelly lor!!!

tomorrow have to do project and stuffs...
JIAYOU~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
Yup.. Went to Bugis....

Supposed to meet up with Elaine at 10.15am.. But when i call her that time..
She is still at home..
Making me having to wait for her till.. 10.45am..

ELAINE!!! YOU!

When reach Bugis.. Ajit scold me..
haha.. nvm.. i dun even care..
I am really so tired... Didnt sleep the previous night.. then.. yesterday.. till 5 plus then sleep..
CUZ I AM BEING KPO!!! LOLL..
haha..

Anyway.... Had lots of great time with the peeps..
Although i went a little pissed later.. cuz of some reason.. I dun wanna say...

But i still love them..
Although they are a bunch of groofy guys.. and girls.. BUT..
I STILL LOVE THEM~~~

1B/21 ROCK!!! HAHA...

Anyway... I have lots lots things happening recently..
Grandpapa is annoying recently..
I nid to cool down.. and think of a way to avoid grandpapa..
haha..

Now.. i managed to do wad i wan.. cuz mummy is not in SINGAPORE!!
HURRAY!
I dun know why.. when mummy is not in singapore.. i am the most happiest lor!
WTH.. haha..

Alright.. had to go to......
Pasir Ris.. tomorrow.. haha....
Cuz have to do project there...
HAIS....
Tomorrow.. have to practice piano...
Get ready......

Today, also dun know wad time will go to sleep lor
haha..

alright.. nitez~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
Haha.. Yup.. I went for dance today...
And I learnt Cha-cha...
Messed up with a few steps.. But... Still went well...
I got pretty high when I got the steps..
Esther is like..looking at me.. and was like trying to endure me..
SRY ESTHER!!!

Always have this passion for dance.. So went over to dance songs from singers....
I am quite proud that I managed to learn, just by looking at the steps by a few times...

So.. wad happened in school today? Or rather.. yesterday.. haha.. cuz it is after 12....
Had IDEAS lesson..

Managed to hand in 3 drawings, which i chiong last night...
Draw like shit... But the teacher still give me a good mark.. Haha.. I am shocked to see the mark.. HAHA...

I SCORED BETTER THAN GALINDO!!!
MUHAHA.. but Galindo's watch looks nice... Not like my Hi-Fi set..
and it is like all about disco.. HAHA..

So after that.. we all decided to go do project.. TODAY.....
and we are like quarrelling at where to meet..

I suggested City Hall.. Cuz Galindo and Poon and Esther stayed at the very east.. then I stay at the very west... So City Hall.. In the Middle... Juz nice..

Then Ajit starts to complain about having to rush from Yishun to City Hall and all the crap..
The later, set at Bugis.. where there is a library for us to do the project.. HAHA..

Anyway.. after that went for CAD.....
During the first half of the lesson, Ajit, Chee Dak, Esther is in the facebook, playing Restaurant City...
While playing the three of them are like shouting across the room, saying wad they nid for the food...
E.g Cheedak, I nid Tomato!

LOLL.. and it is like super loud.. that the teacher even look at us.. HAHA>.

later.. we even started the bowling thingy.. HAHA...
HAHA.. Shouting "I challenge you" aloud in class.. HAHA.. IDIOT LEH!!!

Later.. after class, went over to Dance...
HAD LOTA LOTA FUN!! Haha..

Esther is like so bad... haha. the senior wanted to show her the dance step.. she say..
"Try on her.. since she is the one who dun know.."
LOLL...

She dun wan guys to touch her.. HAHA... I think she is going to give up on it? I dun know.. but i love dancing.. HAHA>. SUPER MUCH!!

Anyway.. After dance.. went to buy Bubble tea with Esther.. HAha.. then when I reach home, is ard.. 9 plus? YEAH.. haha...
Chatted with Galindo.. about the street soccer CCA..

Wanted to be the manager there..
Someone to do the admin thingy.. Like competition la.. Event la..
But Galindo like saying.. Must be in the team.. then can be in..
Hais.. Suan le.. I know I can NEVER make it.. for sports...
Haha.. So i think... I give up on the idea bah?

But I REALLY WAN TO BE A SPORTS MANAGER!!! LOLL..
haha...

Hope Galindo get his team!
Shall help him advertise.. since he is my GIRLFRIEND....* run away*

THOSE WHO LIKE STREET SOCCER.. AND IS IN SP.. PLS CONTACT ME.. so i can tell the PRESIDENT WHO IS GALINDO.. THANKS.....

Galindo!!! THANK ME!!! LOLL....

I am now asking about wad is nid for the club..
I AM SO WORKING HARD FOR IT LOR! HAHA...
alright.. got to go concentrate le..

BUAII~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
YEAH~~~ Haha...
Woke up at 6.45 AM...
Rushed to bathe.. CUZ I WOKE UP LATE!!!!
Didnt bothered to put up mascra.. thinking twice...
Today, I am having volleyball! So.... IT IS A NONO! Cuz i dun wan it to smudge and look horrible!

So in the morning, All the guys saw my Kung-fu shorts....
Galindo was like.. trying to hide his laughter...
BUT THIS IS THE ONLY PANTS I HAVE!!!
SO.... That Kung-fu pants shall be a permanent one for every WEDNESDAY!!
OK??GALINDO! REMEMBER K? LOLL..

During the workshop.. I nearly cannot breathe...
That only happens when I am so tired.. and I didnt eat my breakfast...
So I lied on almost all the girls' shoulder.. Lik a little kid... HAHA....

Then.... After that.... The teacher called all the girls over, wanting to talk to us..
I joked that Galindo should join along.. Cuz Esther also call him Girlindo.. HAHA...

So.. wad did the teacher say? Erm.... about the molest case la.. HAHA...
He knew that it is him.. And he even that.. He TREAT US AS GRANDDAUGHTERS.. LOLL..
But at least he knows la.. So.. YEAH....

I finally survived through the 2 hours.. and changed to the old me.. HAHA....
In the workshop.. It is really HOT! sweating like mad.. and cannot use hands to wipe.. cuz my hands are BLACK!!!

Alright.. after that, went over to FC 4 to eat with the guys...
TODAY.. Esther wore a WHITE shirt...
Surprisingly.. the guy.. JOSHUA.. wore the same white shirt!
AND.. both of them drink the SAME drink!
Elaine and I was like.. SO HIGH...

After that.. joked around with Ajit, Cheedak, Poon and Galindo..
They are talking dirty things.. AND I ALWAYS GET PLAYED AROUND LOR!!!
They talk things i dun know.. then i say sth... then they laugh.. but looking at them laugh, i ended up laughing as well..
LESSON LEARNT: shall not butt in anymore.. LOLL

Ok.. so after that.. headed to FC 5 where the volleyball court is..
Esther at first promised to play together.. But later, she went off cuz she is having Guitar lesson...
Elaine had to go for shopping with her sec school frens...

So.. I AM THE ONLY GIRL PLAYING!
NVM.. i got GIRLINDO with me.. haha.. that makes 2 girls playing.. LOLL...
While playing.. I saw Jessie... Haha... AND WE WAVED AT EACH OTHER... MUHAHA...

So while we were playing... Galindo keep scratching and scratching as if he got bugs around him..
And cheedak... pulled up his shirt and made a bikini shirt... haha.. My sis did that.. haha.. whenever she is dancing with me.. haha...

OH! And also... IT IS SUPER HOT! I cannot take off my clothes like the guys.., HAIZ.. should not have agreed at first.. haha..... But we had a lot of fun.. Cuz we cannot stand the heat.. so decided to go off.. And chill at FC 5....

The guys took a longer time then girls.. I came out like so fast.. they went in.. and like never come out... HAIS....

At FC 5, went to 7-11 bought a drink... And sat down there.. trying to cool down...
In that table.. I am the only girl there.. HAIS...

Later.... Ajit look horrible.. and Galindo joked that this expression looks as if Ajit had a one-night-stand.. LOLL.. that is so funny.. and CD cannot stop laughing.. He keeps laughing and laughing..HAHA...

Later.. Ajit say he has to go off... Cuz he is really not wel.. CUZ .... SAND STUCK IN HIS TOOTH! OMG.. haha... And Poon keep talking about the Chemistry thingy.. HAIZ>. < had enough of Chemistry since Sec 4...

Cheedak also say he wans to go off.. cuz he nid to meet his frens.. BUT.. HE PROMISED TO HELP ME CAD YESTERDAY NIGHT!! HE LIED TO ME!! *sob*

Haiz.. suan le.. shall depend on myself.. Hmmph.... he will get it from me tomorrow.. LOLLL..
So later.. Only left with me and Galindo and Poon...

Then I decided to on my lappie to do CAD.... Galindo decided to do his IDEAS drawing.... Poon started on his comics drawing...

Then Galindo keep saying the tap water thingy.. Made me laugh again.. STUPID LEH...
Then I asked him about his idea.. his idea is good.. BUT..... when he draw.. Also not better than mine....
Then i start to laugh at him le.. HAHA.. So funny..
Then Poon helped out.. Haha.. At first Poon decided to help me draw.. But Ajit say no fair.. so I decided to draw myself.. It is my work.. So i think.. I am not being guilty.. YEAH.. haha...

Later... Galindo asked to see an example from the net.. then i lend him mine.. SINCE I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO BROUGHT THE LAPPIE.....
And I went to watch the Hey!Say!JUMP-ing Tour 08-09 Video....

Galindo keep saying Yamada looks NIANG..
COME ON!! HE IS CUTE! OK?

Then later, chat with a long time no see sister.. MELLY!!!
And he keeps disturbing me.. WTH.....
GO DRAW YOUR IDEAS!!!

Talking about IDEAS.. I think I will be doing it.. tonight.. HAHA....
Ok.. So later... Left with Galindo and Poon.. Cuz Galindo said his mum coming over to sign the Tuition Grant thing with him..
Packed and left with him....AND POON!!!

Crap with him till MRT there.. and waved good-bye with him... and his mum....
And MET WITH BENJAMIN!
is HU.. not another one.. LOLL..
mrt-ed with him.. since he is in the same direction as mine.. HAHA...
He is like so popular.. Everyway he goes, sure got people talk to him de lor! HAIS....

So chatted while he alight JE.. haha.. and I CALLED ELAINE..
but her tone is like.. Oh.. Ok.... HAIS.. suan le.. next time dun call her le la.. So cold towards me lor.. HAIS....

Juz reach home.. HAHA....
So tired now..
Tomorrow.. there is dance.. hehes... I RECEIVED THEIR MAIL!! YEAH!!!
HAHA.. shall i wear heels tomorrow? I think I should? HAHA..
MAYBE BAH..

Alright.. gotta.. go.. bathe...

To Keng: I have forgiven you.. But I nid time to think.. OK? So.. juz leave me alone for these few days.. DUN TALK TO ME.. till i cool down.. K?


Lots of love,
SiSi
It's 12.30AM... in a 13th May....

Why am i still not sleeping?
Had a long time in batheroom just now..
Soaking in the hot hot water, trying to think what have I done wrong....

THings are not going what I want recently...
Parents, Friends, Relationship... BLAH BLAH..

I gues.. lots of people are hating me now..
Including the Unknown person who is spamming my blog...

Anything can make me smile, anything can make me angry or sad...
Especially when someone I trusted so much did that...
I know that person is juz trying to be friendly..
Trying to be someone to help me out..

But the method he is using, make me unable to trust him anymore I think...
I have already forgive him... No doubts.. I dun like to hate people...

But... I am just wondering... why dun he wait till I am ready to tell him, rather than using such kind of method to get his answers? That is really harsh..

Listening to Yamada Ryosuke's Moonlight...
I started to weep...
It is suiting my current feelings....

I dont know why.... Not even Arioka Daiki, Chinen Yuuri, Yamada Ryosuke.. OR even Sakurai Sho could cheer me up...

I used to laugh at any variety shows done by them.... ESP when I am emo-ing..
But i gues.. this is not working for me now....

Why am I like this?
I started to trust too many people..
Now.... everything is telling me.. Not to trust....

So.. lesson learnt is... Not to trust......

I shall go invisible for tomorrow....
If I dont talk to you, please dun get offended.. I nid a day... a time.... to clear the thoughts...
I nid sometime, to get the doubts out..

Will anyone sort it out?
I doubted... I scroll down my phone list in my HP...
Then.. I realised how pathetic I am.....

No one in the list, is someone I could call.....
NONE!

It seems like... I am losing the real soul of me...
I am now searching for the Happy SiSi....

I used to think that...... Sadness is my trademark..
But recently.. when I smile and laugh into the mirror.. I find myself looking nice with that...
But... Now.. I cannot find them... Not even in the mirror....

Maybe it will come back after this period...
Time will finish everything...

I shall just let this go off silently and slowly...

Dun worry.. I am not hating anyone..
In fact.. I am hating myself...

奈々子、笑って！
約束ね？
頑張って！

Lots of love,
SiSi
I promised that I would NEVER post anything negative again...
But now.. I have to break the promise...

I slept at 4 AM today morning.. Cuz i nid to rush all my mum's paper work..
What has it got to do with me?
I dun know..
Anyway.... I dun like it.. Cuz today.. I am really not alright..
My head is aching like mad....
AND I DUN LIKE THIS FEELING!!!

And now.. I have this strong cravings of getting a MP3..
Cuz.. I want to listen to my songs! But I dun have enough money for it..
Thought my mum would get it for me.. for birthday.. But didnt... so was a little disappointed.. Haha..

Alright... So today.. sth bad happened?
I dun blame my fren.. I think i should blame myself?
I mean.. lots of my frens.. have been asking is it one of the 2 guys..
But I keep saying no no no..

My spanish classmate.. say i look better with another guy. rather than that one..
Well... I have to say.. One has the looks, but another, has the character.....

I DUN KNOW! DUN ASK ME NOW!
I am going to go silent for tomorrow..
Let me go emo for tomorrow...

Hope tonight.. i can sleep.. YEAH.. haha..

Alright.. bye~~~


P.S PLS DUN SPAM MY BLOG! IF YOU WAN TO SAY STH BAD.... BETTER STOP IT!! thanks...
Lots of love,
SiSi
YEAH!!! It's my birthday today!
HOW WAS IT?!?!

Well.. In the morning.. It is horrible..
Galindo said I look weird in my clothes....
Cheedak forgot about my birthday.. In fact... many has forgotten about it....

Thanks to Esther and Yunita.. who remember it..
OH! AJIT TOO! haha... He greeted me the first thing he came.. haha.. So is Hanafi.. THANKS!!

So..... I thought this is just going to be a normal school day...
I went to class.... The first lecture is... Dr. Ng's Mechanics...
Esther was late.. SO LATE!!

Last week, on Wednesday, Elaine took a telephone number from Joshua Tan from another class cuz he had a couple wear with Esther...
So this week, we put up an act.. When Esther reach the classroom, I gave the paper with the telephone number and passed it to her, in front of the whole class...

AND I DID IT! Esther is so shocked about it.. Haha....
Oh.. And thanks to Esther for her present...


Elaine say Esther like pian xiao hai zi.. HAHA..
But i like it.. THANKS!!

After during our lunch break....
Went to FC 5.. and ate KFC...
Ajit and Elaine bought a small cake, while everyone fork out the money...
I am so surprised that they would do that.. HAHA..

They are clever in asking me to use the mouth to take out the HAPPY BIRTHDAY sign..
But I guessed it somehow.. Haha..
So i took it out pretty quickly.. HAHA..
SO didnt managed to smash..
But Ajit did it.. Later.. Haha.. I looked like I just came out from mud..

I tried to pull Galindo in as he is smiling so happily.. But he is too fast.. Haha...
Anyway.. After I have clear-up.. Gabriel....
He told us how he was being smashed... "SMASH and TWIST"

Hearing that, Elaine and Esther got super high...
They later suggested Ajit to do that too...
So Elaine and Esther.. these 2 evil girls... put Mash Potato, Chilli Sauce, And all the left over food.. ON TO THE CAKE!

And Ajit planned to smash it.. So i ran over to Azreen and Pris there.. and chatted a while while eyeing on the cake...
We were joking.. With the Galindo COWARD!

Running away.. HAIZ....

Later, we decided to go for OC class....
Ajit lied that he threw away the cakes.. But in fact.... the cake is still with him!
Later.. all the other girls came over and form a circle.. then I start to scream for my life..
I ran up the staircase.. BUT KENG CAUGHT ME!!
KENG! YOU ARE GOING TO GET IT FROM ME!~ I AM TELLING LING!!!

They somehow like.... make me sit by the stairs and smash the cake right onto my face....
and Galindo was there standing in front of me.. SMILING......

KNS!!!
AND AJIT ACTUALLY WAS SO HAPPY ABOUT IT!!!
I am practically screaming and screaming.. And all the rest are laughing like mad..
Haha...
Some parts of the cake.. flew into my eyes...
Thanks to Poon who supplied me with tissues for me to wipe.....
Oh.. And Thanks to Galindo who didnt help out with their evil plans.. At least you have LIANGXIN.. LOLL..
THanks to Yunita who accompanied me to the toliet to wash-up...
I wash my whole head.. WITH COLD WATER!!
Then.. we rushed over to CASS.. for OC lesson...
BUT IT IS RAINING!
SO i took off my shoe.. cuz it is a present from my mum..
And I ran all the way to CASS.. into the room...

When i went into the class.. I am shivering cold.. Haha...
And I coughed a few times.. And my lecture started to scold me for coming to school..
I shall not recall that part...
Anyway.. Thanks to Ajit.....
I heard Birthday songs for.. 3 times..

1. In Mr. Choy's Lesson
2. During the celebration in lunch break
3. In Constance's Lesson

THANK YOU!
Although Mummy and Daddy cannot celebrate with me.. I am glad to have you guys... WITH ME!!!
THANK YOU!!
This is the best birthday ever!!!

Alrright.. Let's see the..... PRESENTS!!!


From my sister... She sure has a good taste of Fashion.. Haha...


This is from May, my nanny...
I LOVE IT!! IT IS KAWAIII!!


COmputer Pouch.. From Daddy.. He asked Mummy to buy on his behalf..
I LOVE IT!!
IT HAS FUJI ON IT!!! HAHA..

FUJI, AISHITERU!!


This is how I look for today..
HMM... Do i look slimmer? I think I look great! But... some said i look weird..
And you know who... HAHA..

Anyway..
I wanna thank all those who have wished me today...
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

I mean what i said.. I am really touched.. Haha...

THank you.. Alright.. Nid to go off now.. BUAI!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi

Well.. This is going to a last post before I turn 17 Years Old..

Looking back.. I have done lot and lots funny and stupid things..
I have also hurt lots and lots of people..
Not to mention of course, myself being hurt..

But I now, decide that I will forgive all the people who used to hurt me.. Since I am going to be someone who is much more mature and older..

Recalling back, I saw how stupid I am..
I saw how idiot I am...

I am going to be someone totally brand new from the start of 12.00AM May 11 2009.
From that time onwards.. I am a total 17 Years Old.
I need to be more and more mature.
I want to enjoy every single seconds with the people around me.
I want to smile as much as I want.
I want to forgive all those whom use to hurt me.
I want to love all those whom I used to hate..

Smile will then be my trademark..

I will be a brand new SiSi and a brand new Nanako..

Sayonara, 16 Sai no Nanako
Good Bye to 16 Year Old SiSi....

Lots of love,
SiSi

Picture taken from Google

Have to say, Shida Mirai-chan has gotten prettier compared to the past...
I know her since Tantei Gakuen Q 's (探偵学園Q) acting as Minami Megumi (南恵美)
Then to 14 Sai no Haha (１４才の母) acting as Ichinose Miki (一瀬美紀)
Later to Seigi no Mikata (正義の味方) acting as Nakata Yoko (中田容子)

I always find her acting skills surprising...
In Tantei, I can see her effort in trying to be someone who can remember things will...
In 14Sai, I can see how she made an effort of showing a mother underage, trying to protect her kid.
In Seigi, I can see how she tried her best to show how she tried her best for her sister......

Now, she is in Horikoshi Gakuen （堀越学園）
Ideal school of mine....

In the same class as Yamada Ryosuke（山田涼介）, Chinen Yuuri（知念侑李）, Nakajima Yuto（中島祐と）.
In the TRAIT course....
16 Years Old now...

Wishing her all the best, and hoping to see more and more good doramas from her...

志田未来ちゃん、頑張って～
ずっと、好きだよ～

御誕生日おめでとう～～

Lots of love,
SiSi
I am feeling better now..
My fever didnt come back for today....

Thanks to people who cared for me...
Elaine.....
Poon.....
Ling aka Da Sao...
Keng

I am feeling lota lota better.. Hehes....
I hope tomorrow, I can survive through my teaching.. I am teaching in Cristofori tomorrow....

I swear.. tomorrow, I am going to get a scolding from my supervior..
For being rude to a parent..
But the truth is.. the child curse me first..
Well.. that doesnt matter me at all..

That supervior also look down on me...
So I am not going to care about her......
I am just going to teach who I will be teaching...

I thought, being a teacher, I could have a little pride..
But.. NO!

Definitely not what you think...
So... I am so quitting after 1 year contract is over..
MUHAHA....

So I am counting down.. COUNTING DOWN!!! Haha...

Anyway....THERE IS SCHOOL ON MONDAY!! YEAH!!
So I can spend my day in something meaningful.. Haha....

Alright got to go get ready and....... Sleep? Or Wateva...

Bye~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
Wanna wish Yamada Ryosuke a Really Happy Birthday..



It is... 12.15 am in Japan now...



OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!

He is really a hot hot guy! Love him!!!





Wanted to count down.. But since daddy is not coming back..
I see no point counting down le..

Shall just make it a normal, usual school day.... And have fun in school...

ALright.. BYE~~~


Lots of love,
SiSi
How is my day?

I dun like today.... I am supposed to go out and enjoy the Friday with DBEN classmates..
But Esther cannot make it, Elaine is sick... My temperature shot up again..
I thought if Elaine is going, I can juz ignore the temperature and go.. BUT ELAINE IS NOT! So I smsed Cheedak and said that I am not going...

Anyway..... I woke up at.. 9 plus.. cuz my mum is nagging me to wake up..
SHe has no idea that I am having Fever..

So I woke up and start to do my hwk... CAD....
Then my aunt came to celebrate an early birthday with me...
Galindo nearly drove me mad..
He was talking to me on MSN.. he thought it is my aunt's birthday.. so he wished..
But he is in a total... Hecking tone.. Making me feeling like killing him...

Never mind.. After that I played.. 2 hrs of piano practices.. At that time, my mum still has not idea I am having fever... After that.. My mum pulled me out of the house and ask me to accompany her.... to office...

So.. still sick, I went over.. to help out..
I am in a total busy state.. Not even sitting down and breathe.. HAIZ...

Then later.. went to Vivo for dinner with mum's collegue and shopped for a while..
They keep asking why I am looking so pale..
But I cannot just say.. I am having fever.. So i shook my head and kept quiet...

When my mum is alone with me, she screamed at me, for not replying them..

But I AM SICK! How can i possibly tell them.. I am sick.. can you please dun talk?
How unreasonable is she?
HAIZ...

Now..... My thermometer, shows......
38.3.....

SEE? Just finish eating medicine.. And i still got lots lots of things to do..
Haiz.. really feel like dying would be the best.. She doesnt even care about me..
Anyway..... I shall just forget it...

COUNTING DOWN......... 3DAYS to my big big day!!!

I hope I can get something nice? Maybe daddy? coming back?? YEAH!!! HAHA...

Alright got to go.. BYE~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
I dun know why... But I feel like blogging now again...
Heard this song.. Yamada Yu's new song.. My All..



ためらいがちな指先が
開く電話、その瞬間
手のひらで鳴る音が
この心に響いてくる

「なんとなく君に呼ばれた気がして」
まるで直ぐ側にいるように

彼方の声が聴きたいのに、なぜ
いつも素直になれなかったの？
強がる胸の奥で叫んでいる
会いたくて。。。
今は、ただ会いたくて

同じ宙（そら）見上げれば
瞳のような星の光り
「一人でも大丈夫。。。」
そんな言葉が、解けて行く

ありのままでいい。。。たった一言が
伝える本当の愛を

彼方の声が聴きたいから、今
夜を越えても、会い行くから
その体温（ぬくもり）を感じて居たいから
受け止めて
その腕に眠らせて

明日、彼方のもとで
この心、目覚めた時
そっと抱きしめていたこの夢が
愛しさと言う想いへと変わる

彼方の声が私を呼んでる
優しさという陽射の中で
後少しだけ、このままで居させて
重ねあう
その手を離さないで

彼方の声が聴きたいから、今
夜を越えても、会い行くからその体温を感じて居たいから
重ねあう
その手を離さないで

I cried when I listened to this song..
This is somehow like how I feel now...
I am in amiss now..

I dont know if i should take a step forward or backward...

Let's take it... from Monday onwards, a new me.. will be up....

Let's wait and see...

Lots of love
SiSi
After the previous post, I went to practice my piano...
Enduring my headache, and practice for 2 hours...

Being scolded me for not concentrating....
Anyway...
After lunch, ate some medicine and went to sleep....

Woke up at 3 plus cuz of a disturbance of a call from friend, asking if I can join them for dance...
Rejected them cuz not feeling so well....

Then, did a little of IDEAS.. But seriously.. I still didnt managed to get the thing I want onto the paper.. And I still have the 'tap water' thingy in my mind....

And then, Headache started again, went to measure my temperature...
Guess how much? 38.2...

HAIS....

No wonder not feeling so great....
Popped a few medicine and went back to sleep again...
Other than headache and coughing, my fever has gone down a little bit... Haven go to the doctor to take the X-ray.. Shall see for tomorrow.. If tomorrow is still like this, maybe considering going back...

Now is.. 5.30.. Still lying on my bed...
Wonder if mummy would scream at me, if she see me using lappie on the bed....
I bet she will...

Anyway... MUM's DAY is coming!
I haven go out and buy anything yet.. Maybe I shall make her something?
Like... Cleaning the house, Massage for her? LOLL..

Ok.. So after MUM's Day, that would be......

MY BIRTHDAY!!!! YEAH! 17th Birthday...

Just now my dad called..
DAD: Girl, being a 16 year old kid, you have a big responsibility.
Me: DAD! I am going to be 17 soon! And.. I am not a kid!
DAD: Really? You are going to get 17 already?
Me: YES? Please dont tell me you forget which year I am born.
DAD: Hey! I am not stupid! I know it is 1992!
Me: Phew, Dad, i am glad you know it..^^
DAD: so this means, I am getting older?
Me: NOPE! You are not old!

See? I dun know why.. I am always taking my dad as my friend...
We always chatted like we are friends.. Hehes...

When I was young, i said that I am going to marry Daddy.. Haha..
But... You know.. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!

Anyway.. Daddy's birthday is coming soon too...
His falls on the same day as mine...

Although he is not being able to celebrate with me... But I know, he still wishes me a happy birthday...

Alright.. shall stop here.. Need to do my.. Electronic homework.. hehes...

Bye~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
YEP... I am on Medicial Leave today...

Cuz.... I am practically coughing for the whole 1 hour when I am in bed...

And also my dad kept asking my mum to bring me to the doctor...



Then, she brought me there.. LAST NIGHT...

On the way there, she scolded me wasting money... I could just pay half a price in the morning, but yet i dun want to go see the doctor in the morning.



But.. she can bring me there the next morning!!!

Hais....



What did the doctor say?



Doctor: How long have you been coughing?

Me: Since April 20th plus...

Doctor:*shocking expression* for more than 2 weeks! Then why do you come now?

Me: Cuz I am too busy?

Doctor:* Start to listen to the lungs and etc.* Well.. I cannot hear anything from your lungs.. So I advice you to come tomorrow, for a X-ray.. To make sure that you lung is alright..

Me: So what if I dont?( Cuz i dun wanna waste money)

Doctor: Well.. Your lungs will get damanged and you will have pneumonia.



So... Hearing this.. the only thing I thought of is.. Lung Cancer.. Haha...

Not that I want to die that early.. But I dun know why it will link to that....



BUT.. I can tell is that.. PLS DUN LET ME GET ANY CANCERR!!! I hate cancer!

I got lotta lotta things that I have not done yet! I dun wanna just leave like that..



Ok... Hmmm.. Anyway.. Updates on yesterday.. When I am in school...



So.. All of us went for the CCA showcase..

I actually signed up more than I really want!

Let's see...

1. Piano ensembles [ i dun know why i actually did that]

2. String ensembles[That is what I want initially]

3. Chinese cultural club [ WTH is that? But I like the people in there!!!]

4. Choir [ I dun think i will be going.. Cuz.. I dun know.. haha]

5. Dance [That is wad i wanted too!! HAHA]



Anyway.. Elaine and I went joining like almost all the CCAs related to music.. I sign up one thing, I will pursuade her to sign in with me.. haha.. how fun.. LOLL...

As for Esther.. She signed up the whole.. Fighting CCA.. shall ask her to show me some of moves to drive away perverts! But later, she joined dance with me.. YEAH!!! Haha...



Then later.... We went back to FC 5.. And we sat there, waiting for seats to do our AutoCAD.. But the foodcourt is practically too crowded. So the guys went to look for the IDEAS teacher, Mr. Choy, while Esther, Elaine and me are talking crap, sitting down there...Elaine is so funny.. And I am always laughing down there... Haha...



After the guys are back, we decided to go to the MAIN library where everyone can do CAD there... We went there.. But suddenly Elaine cried because she thought of her past.. So Esther and I brought her to the toliet where she can cool down... I have never seen her cry before.. My heart went for her when she cried.. And I nearly cried too! But I told myself that I have to be strong, so that I can support her!



She told us about her love life and things like that.. But while she is being so sad, something happened with Esther around..



Scene 1:

A GIRL which dress like a guy went over to wash her hand.



ESTHER: Is this a uni-sex toliet?

Elaine and I: *shocking* shhh...



After the girl left..

ESTHER: so she is a girl?

Me: YEAH! How can you say that? that is bad!

ESTHER: SHIT!



and we went laughing at it.. I cannot believe that Esther would speak it out loud! Haha.. Sorry for that girl...



Scene 2:

Elaine was talking about how she hated Nanhua Sec People cuz sth happened with Nanhua people..



Me: You cannot say that.. What if that girl is in that Sec?*point to another girl washing her hand*

Esther: She is meh?

The girl: Yes.. I am...*faking smile*

Esther: OMG!

Me: I am just joking! Please dun bring your friends to kill us! Sorry!

Elaine: *hide from seeing that girl*



After the girl left..



Esther: I cannot believe! KNS!

Me: I can buy TOTO or 4D le! Haha...



I dun know I can suan ming alr....



Scene 3 Has been deleted cuz it is CONFIDENTAL!! Only Elaine, Esther and me..know.. haha..
Wanna know? Hmm.. Wait lor.. haha...


Anway.. Later... Esther went back to do her CAD homework.. While I continued to talk to Elaine.. BUT THEN.. the guy who dance with me in the Dance appeared.. He went.. Eh? Hi!

And I am like.. Hi.. back..



But weirdly speaking.. I dun feel the fast heart beating anymore...

I think i dun like him anymore....



Cuz.. I know nothing about him.....

Plus.. I am happy with the state I am in now...


And later... the guys continued to work hard on CAD while I and Galindo slack...
I off-ed my computer cuz he said he want to do his CAD.. but he ended up doing nth.. and I ended up doing nothing.....

So i watched a video on soccer with him... And I went cheering.. and the whole group went SHHHH....
But his computer went low batt.. so i used my computer to watch School Kakkumei...
I forced Galindo to watch with me.. And he went haha.. sacastically.. Cuz he practically dun understand a thing.. Haha.. But at least he laughed at Hikaru-kun's expression...

Then later, I decided to buy drinks for the guys.. So i asked Elaine to go with me... And pulled Galindo together as well... Went to 7-11 to buy Soya Bean for Galindo, then back to FC3 to buy the juices for the guys.. Then went back to Library... On the way.. Elaine said so much about her family! Hais.. It made me feel so bad!

ELAINE!!! If you want to come to my house.. My door will be wide open for you!! Haha...

Then when I went back, I decided to do something... for IDEAS.. so i drew the picture.. and I showed it to Galindo, who is the free-est among the all.... Reading my newspaper.. and then listening to music..

Me:Galindo, can you tell what am I drawing? * showing him my drawing*
Galindo: Hmmmm.... *looking seriously* a tap?
Me:*shock* a tap? You sure? Look carefully! What is this?
Galindo* look left, look right* My answer is still tap..
Me: What give you this answer?
Galindo: cuz my house's tap is like this...

Hearing this, I started to laugh.. I know my drawing sucks.. But his answer is too funny! Haha... I decided to ask the rest...

Me: Esther, Keng.. Wad is this?*showing my drawing*
Both: Tap?
Me: HAHA!!!

They made the same answer.. Haha.. And I went laughing... LIKE HELL...
I asked the same thing to Elaine.. She said is See-Saw...

I went laughing again! Haha....THat is practically too funny!

Then.. I went over to another side.. CUz i need to think how to draw.. Then i went over to sketches.. I find that sketches are good! LOLL.. haha..

And then ard.. 5 plus.. to 6.. decided to leave the library.. and go home...
On the way.. Ajit say how annoying her girlfriend is... Haha...

Anyway.. I said something.. And Ajit say I said that I am pregrant.. And he went asking who is the father..
I joked that it was him.. Then he replied..

Ajit: That is highly impossible.. Cuz.. I dun want the child to look like Zebra..

Hearing this.. Cheedak went laughing like mad... He is laughing and laughing..
HEY! What is so funny arh? I felt so shameful!!!

Ajit, Cheedak, Galindo went laughing and laughing.. Then later... I acted as if i am angry.. and then when the guys came.. I punished them, by asking them each to carry a thing...

Cheedak, with my book.. Galindo with my laptop... Ajit with my bag...

They then went pushing the blames to each other... and ended up.. Keng with carrying my laptop and my bag.. and he went walking like a girl.. LOLL..

KENG!! GROW UP! IF NOT, I TELL LING!!!! LOLL...

I went over to get my laptop back and my bag and my books.. And I went talking with the girls.. On if I should get an MC or not.. Anyway... I nearly went crying..

My emo came up as well..

Usual... Became really bored after Jurong East... Cuz Ajit, Cheedak and Elaine went over to another train... while i head to Lakeside..

When we were on the train.. Ajit was joking like mad with me...

Me: I dare you to disappear in front of me..
Ajit: Really? Ok.. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.. *hide behind his laptop..* LAME!!!

Me: now, I dare you to appear in front of me.. Later after the JE stop..
Ajit: Sure.. No problem.. Even if you want me to follow you home also can..
Me: Serious?

* The train suddenly jerked... and Ajit went falling forward*
Elaine and Me: HAHA!!!

* The train suddenly stopped.. and Ajit went falling back*
Elaine and me: HAHAHAHAHA.. even more! Haha..

Ajit went so embarrassed.. Haha.. I am see him getting red.. Haha.. so funny!!! haha..

Anyway.. When the JE stop reached.. I dared him once more.. for not leaving.. He then took out his wallet and passed my his IC..

Ajit: Remember to bring it tomorrow..
Me: Huh.. But I am not coming back tomorrow...
Ajit: SHIT! Give me back then..
And i went laughing.. You should really see how he looks.. So funny.. Haha...

Anyway.. this is being a long Post....
I just have to say.... 1B/21 ROCKS!!!

The guys are funny and idiot.. and sure someone you should look for if you are being sad...
The girls are really easy to talk to.. If you have any secrets.. they will be a great person whom you can share the secrets to....

Alright.. time for medication.. BYE~~~~

Lots of love,
SiSi
Just got home from school...

Reached home at.. 7 plus...



Having serious headache and throat pain...

Coughing non-stop...

Thanks to Galindo.. I think he has passed the throat pain to me...



OH! And add on to that.. Muscle pain, thanks to the badminton...

Diaphragm pain.. Cuz.. I have been coughing too much.....



Anyway.. When I reached home at 7 plus..

My mum starts to scold me....



I am too tired to reply her..

I am too tired to respond to her...



I tried to explain.. But there is no use at all..

She even blames me for mixing ard with my friends....





Now, All i want, is some freedom...

A time with my friends.. and to do the things that I want..



Let's see how I am doing everyday.. If I am not in school...



Monday.... School ends at....3 plus.. Then when I reach home.. Have to practice piano... and do hwk..



Tuesday... Piano lesson early in the morning at 8.. School starts at 10...... School ends at.. 7 plus. cuz i am having Spanish class.. After reaching home, I have to do hwk and tons of things..



Wednesday... After school, chilling with friends.. and then go home, practice piano...



Thursday..... School ends at 5... go home do the same usual routine...



Friday.. No school.... But Have to practice piano for 4 hrs.. Then go for accountancy lesson at night...



Saturday... No school.... Have to practice piano for 4 hrs.. Do hwk..



Sunday.. Teaching in piano school since 9.. till 5... Reach home... play piano for at least 2 hrs...







When would I even have time for myself?

Everytime, when I am alone, I will be asking myself.. What is life?

Is this the one that I want?



No.. The conclusion is.. NO...

I know that all these are for my own good... But I dun like the way it is..

Elaine told me, she is envying how I am having now.. At least, I have a mother who loves me..



But... i dun like it..

I cannot breathe.... I want to get out of the life that I am having...



Everyone has their own problem... I cannot tell anyone the real me..

I seldom use to think about the real me.. i just leave with a mask..



But after Galindo talked about it... I am thinking more and more into the real me..

I saw more and more of the real me...



I always look confident and happy.. I will only break down if I am really down...

But after the talk....

I saw the ugly side of me.. i sta

Lots of love,
SiSi
HEY!!!!

Haha.. I think I am feeling lota lota better...
Thanks to Keng.. And Galindo...
Haha..

Oh.. Of course.. Thanks to Elaine and Esther...
These 2 girls have been always by my side..

Thanks to Yuni and Nirija for comforting me... Haha.. During the OC lesson...

Well..
KENG: Dun worry.. I will work hard on crying in front of you guys.. Haha.. Cuz i thought, showing the best side, will not let friends get affect.. That is my side of thinking la.. So if you see me cry.. Is when.. I am really... Cannot take it le..

Galindo: Hey! Thanks... Anyway.. I am scared that.. your phone will burst.. haha.. cuz.. RECENTLY.. I have tons and tons of problems..
NO WORRY! I PROMISE to show the real side of me.. OK?

Anyway.. I have decided to solve the situation.. myself...
Cuz.. this is all my fault.. As you can seee...
If you dun know why happened.. Can juz ask me.. I am sure.. I will TELL FRIENDS!!! Haha..

Smiling is indeed important to me..
That is why I am smiling in front of everyone..

Cuz.. I like to be happy too.. Sometimes, the smile is a real one..
But sometimes.. is.. well.. a squeezed out one..

I get affected easily..
And I admit that I am really sensitive...

If anything happen, I will think that people will be laughing at me..
I dun know.. Although I am confident, but sometimes, I will still be not confident with what others think of me..

In front of my parents.. I have to be a 100 mark kid..
In front of my sister.. I have to be a 100 mark sister..
In front of my relatives.. I have to be a 100 mark person who is good at everything.

I want to let it go..
But sometimes.. Due to many problems, I cannot.. I cant bear to tell my Mother that I want to give up.

They have so much high hopes in me.. I dun bare to hurt them..
So I am always holding onto the things that they pile to me...
Sometimes.. I cannot breathe. But because of the pride, my parents, I have to hold it on..

I know, as long as I have passed the test of this, i will graduate..

Outside, I look like I want to be independent, I want to be alone. I am a really cool person.
Inside, I hope I could be with my friends, my parents.. with the real me...

Today, I really decided to throw away the FAKE mask...
I want to show the real me in front of my friends, my family..

But, i hope the new friends that I am having, will not get scared by me.. Cuz of my true me..
Cuz the real me.. Is really someone who is self-centred.. Someone who hurt others....

I think.. I have made a big improvement into writing this down....

I will smile forever.. No matter what..

Waratte Banzai!

Lots of love,
SiSi
I dont know why... I should be happy.. But now, I am not happy AT ALL..
I thought this blog is going to be a happy bloggie.. about my happy school life..
But this seems not to be coming true..

I think, lots ofpeople hating me..
Or is it the past experience are getting over me....

The way i look at others.. are different...
So different...
I dun know why.. I am seeing hatred from everyone's eyes...

Maybe I am thinking too much?

Yeah.. People dun know me..
Me, myself, also dun know what is happening....

Everyone.... are nice person...
I really can say.. They are nice person...

I think I am the only person who are not into the crowd....
I dun know who i am and i dun know where I am...
Sometimes, I went to get disappear for a while...

Lots of things are happenig recently...
Will I get over it?
Will I be back to the cheerful one again?

I dun know....
Seeing this, I recalled yamada yu's REAL YOU..

I hope, I would be just like the lyrics of the song...
To be the real you..

Can I be one?
I hope..... One day, i will not hate myself...

If I ever not appear in front of you, juz take that , I left to take a break....
I will be back.. one day.. really soon..........

Lots of love,
SiSi
I think.. I am really not suitable to be a teacher...

Sensei wa arimasen!

I want to say " Sensei wa Erai!"先生は偉い！

I really envy those who can make a great teacher..
I cannot..

I will lose patient after repeating myself for more than 3 times..
But this will only happen if the child is not paying attention..

Recently, I met with tons of such students..
They even curse me or things like that...

Haiz.. shall let it be..

Anyway.. TOMORROW, SCHOOL IS STARTING!!

学園は凄いです！

学園は大好きです！

Starting to love the school.
Love the class.. And love everyone in the class...

Thanks everyone who are with me..

Esther for helping me out with tons of things..
Elaine for making me laugh at her laughter.
Yuni, My mummy....
Keng, My brother... who have been always by my side..
Nirija who is always talking and talking with me...

I love everyone of them!!!

友情万歳！！

Lots of love,
SiSi
どうして最近気持ちはそんなにのよくなさができますか？

Lots of people in Japan are asking me that.
Even my Daddy is asking me this.

All I can reply is...

I am too stressed. Because of all the work, all the studies, etcs.
But..... THat could only reply to my parents.

I think, I can really go to Mediacorp and ask for a job as actor.
Or is it my parents actually know that I am acting?


I don't know.
I get stressed over school, work, friendships and also about relationships.

School:
Projects are pilling up.
Homework are not even able to be done so easily.

Work:
Have to work on the weekends.
But I juz resigned in teaching a Pri School Student.
So from tomorrow onwards, I am a full time Piano Teacher..
Yoroshiku ne?

Friendship:
I believed that I have updated something about it up here...
But.. It seems that, some parts of it, I really dont dare to put it up..
I am afraid, people get too.... never mind..

Relationship:
I get really uneasy recently.
I noticed about something, but I cannot say anything...
I cannot do anything.
I am afraid that this will lead to a leak in the friendship.
What should I do?

Some suggested to get someone to act this out.
Some suggested, juz to act as if nothing happens.
Some suggested to just confront him..

So many suggestions. Which one should I take?
If I get the first one, Who can I choose?
If I use the second one, I get super uneasy in class...
If I use the last one, What if friendship just crack?

I am seriously being so so troubled!

望み、すべてもっと良くなることができます!!!


OHH! Before I forget!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AJIT!!! (Birthday on May 2)
御誕生日おめでとう、小山慶一朗( Birthday on May 1)

Talking about birthdays.. I recalled that mine is coming super soon..

like.. 9 days later? Haha....
Starting to get a little excited over it..
I have plenty of wishes actually.. But, I will only make 3.. Haha...

OH!! And Yamada-kun's birthday is also coming..
2 days before me.. HAHA....
He is turning 16 super soon..
Wonder how he will turn to....

I AM MORE INTERESTED WITH MYSELF!!! LOLL..

Alright.. got to do Spanish Homework~

¡Audious!

Ciao!

Lots of love,
SiSi
Good things NEVER come with pair..

But bad things always come with Pair or even with lots of followings....

Guess what?

1. Betrayed and hurted
2. Ask to return everything...

Now, I have lots and lots of things... But i have no one to talk to.
I have no one who can help me with it..

If anyone could juz hug me, and let me cry in..
Telling me everything will be fine..
If anyone could juz tell me, "I will be on your side no matter what"

But, that will never be happening.. Because, i am always alone.
Although i look as if i am happy, but the inner me, is forever not showing.

Why am I not being myself?

Looking into my mirror, I cannot recognise the person in it.
Will I get used to it?
I hope I can...

Lots of love,
SiSi