I juz blew up at one of my best friends..
Basically.. i think i am being too jealous?LOLL

she has been practicially talking to another girl.. whenever i sit with them.. i felt like a third party.. an extra person...

Why do i always have this kind of feelings?
i seriously dun know why...

but i juz blew up at them.. and walked off even though they called me back.. and blah blah..
Maybe i nid to cool down and sort my things out or sth?

But i guess. this friendship is gone forever.. she maybe thinking i am being petty and unreasonable..
But seriously.. I cannot stand it anyone..
I would rather be alone.. but not to be like a third party, feeling insecure in the friendship...

i gues.. that is the end of our friendship.. and end of my survival in 1B/21....

Lots of love,
SiSi
Have to admit... Haven been posting for a long long time..
WHY? Because my week is horribly.. hectic.. totally packed with tons and tons of things..

Anyway... although had a hectic week.. but i seems to love school a lot.. a lot..
Monday.. met up with Wangjue after school and chilled at school....in the library.. with some movies.. Surprisingly met Keith and Gary during dinner and was practically talking crap most of the time..

Wangjue and me were like laughing most the time.. UNGLAM!!!

TUESDAY
I had lesson till 11 plus.. VOON is practically wasting our time.. the class actually ended after 1 hr plus plus..
And i am late for the class! cuz of the piano lesson...
The rest of the time, had lunch with the Ajit gang cuz that day is Priscilla's birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Then went to library with Monica.. for a movie.. and then started to wonder around the school, with tons of sms-ing and blah blah..

Around 5.. Eddie and Wangjue met me up and walked me up to the CASS building.. I am so touched! I actually joked that.. i wanted them to wait for me.. But ended up, they smsed me saying they will be in the library waiting for me.. I am super touched at that time..
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME PEOPE DID THAT TO ME! OMG..
Had dinner at FC4.. and Eddie was practically fighting with me all the time.. HAHA....

WEDNESDAY
I was late.. super late.... I reach school at ard.. 9 plus plus.. going to be 10 soon.. and i actually finished the workpiece faster than anyone else..
Met up with Wangjue... And went to Clementi.. WE WALKED THERE! See how solid we were.. LOLL..
Went to the aracade.. to have some fun.. I actually went into the toliet and got my SP t-shirt wore totally inside out.. cuz NO SCHOOL LOGO THINGY ALLOW IN IT.. HAHA. i look like a dumb idiot in there..

Later, went over to see for safety pants.. My objective that day was to get Contact Lens solutions... But i ended up not buying it.. and start shopping for safety pants.. Sorry Wangjue for walking with me...

Went to dance.. I have to say.. IT HURTS ON HEELS!! ok la.. not so much on the ball of the feet. But more of the side...

THURSDAY
IT'S KENG'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!
Happy birthday brother! HEHS..

Didnt went to celebrate with him with the gangs.. cuz i didnt recieve any invitations..
So i went with Weiquan, Hanafi, Yuni and also Nirija...
Was surprised to see Wangjue in FC5.. so found her friends a seat.. while we have our lunch...
When we get to the CAD room, Only Monica and Sandra was there.....
I am so surprised...
We actually had 1 hr 30mins for lunch..

I am proud of myself to be able to hand in the holiday hwk just after doing for 15 mins.. HAHA..
IT TOOK ME THAT LITTLE TIME... LOLL..

Anyway... i endured the 4 hrs.. and met up with Wangjue to go to dance..
Anyway.. my eyes are not listening to me again.. And i start to see things i shouldnt see again.... HAIS...

Went for dance.. THE HEELS IS KILLING ME EVEN MORE TAT DAY.. the whole ball of the feet is like so pain..
Learnt the Cha Cha walk.. and the check thingy. still didnt managed to practice it up...
Cuz i dun get it yet...

Reach home totally tired..

FRIDAY
rested at home.. and slept till 12 plus.. HEHE..
When i woke up.. i am shocked that.. i have my com on.. and people are looking for me online..
I must have fallen asleep while using the laptop on my bed...

Yup.. i did...
Slacked the whole day.... But seriously.. it is boring.. BORING!!!

SATURDAY
which is today.....
Woke up at 9 plus.. and got ready for swimming lesson..
HAIS>.< I HATE IT SERIOUSLY.. i dun like to learn it like that..
I am like praying.. pls let my "friend" be here today.. So that i can dun go to swim.. but unfortunately.. it didnt.. But i managed to get the breathing right?!

I am so tired after the swim that i went for a afternoon nap... I planned to have a.... 1 hr one.. but ended up sleeping till dinner time...
I think i shall chiong for my OC thingy tonight..
Cuz tomorrow.. is working day....
I HATE IT>.
i really wanted to terminate the contract.. HAIS.. but i dun know how..

Anyway.. JIA YOU JIAYOU!!! shalll work hard.. for wednesday.. CUZ I AM GOING TO WATCH HARRY POTTER SOON!! YEAH~!!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi
Hmm.. Haven been updating for a long long long time..
I know.. HAHA.. have been a lot of things happening..
Must be asking why Sunday.. I am still online.. I SHOULD BE WORKING!
Well... I am on Medical Leave today.. hehes..

Running a slight fever and also..... a cough.. Wonder i could survive through tomorrow, Constance's lesson...
Anyway.. shall put up some pics.. on the presentation last Monday.. ^^


Yuni, Me and Nirija.. HEHES.. opps.. my eyes looks funny.. HAHA..
Let's see.. everyone is in black! HAHA..


Monica, Me and Sandra.. HEHES.. i do look taller.. dun i? HEHES...

Alright.. skip to this friday.. went shoe-shopping for dancesport..
Met up with Wangjue, Benedict, Eddie, Leeyan.. And bernice.....
Went all the way to S&G.. but sadly.. there isnt any of my size.. and my size can only come in a few wks time.. so decided to go to Lavender, Eddie's teacher's studio and get a pair..
Yup.. Got it at 88 Bucks.. and also bought a latin skirt.. YEA!!!
Shall lett you all see.. some of the pics.. HEHES
Hmm.. Alright.. i juz got 1.. HAHA.. with WANGJUE!!! HAHA
BUT.. it seems like.. the photobucket is not working.. shall not post it up.. HEHES....

Welll.. Last Sunday.. have a little cam-whoring..




I hope you guys notice sth difference.. HAHA...

Anyway... got to go.. had to entertain my cousin..... She has been nagging and nagging me.. and i dun know why... HAHA..

Lots of love,
SiSi
Yup.. I am nervous, scared and stress.. I seriously dun know wad to do for tomorrow.. CUZ....

THere is something happening tomorrow! LOLL...

HAHA...



Hoping everything could go on well and nice..

And.. I wanna thank my good sistas..



Esther, Elaine, Yuni AND ALSO.. NIRIJA!!

HAHA.. these 4.. I love them so so so much...

Thanks for being by my side..



HEHES... Alright. i got to go sleep.. Cuz.. i am SO SO tired.. HAHA..



And.. THERE IS DANCE TOMORROW!!! YEAhHH!!!



Lots of love,
SiSi
I am really in a loss...
Nobody knows what kind of situation I am in right now...

Tried to look for people to help me out..
In the first minute, he agreed to help..
Later, he actually backed out..
Not to bitch about him....

But.. I felt like he lift me up into the clouds.. and now, I am down into the hell...
Right now.. I am really stressed....

Upon hearing the S name, I felt really uneasy, as if i can juz jump down from the building..
I dont know why.. But I am really recieving a lot of stress...

People think it is juz studies.. But now... It is totally different...
I hate when I said NO.. yet S continues to pester..
I hate when I have already talked it out.. Yet S STILL continue..

I cannot stand it anymore.. Seriously...
Can i say.. if he continues.. I will be killing myself pretty soon...

I really cannot take it anymore.. Seriously...

Lots of love,
SiSi
This week is the wk of MST..
Everyone is chiong-ing before the test starts.. So is our class...
Everyday, we would like last minute meet at the school to have some discussion on the paper... And this made our relationships better i guess?
HAHA..
but really.. when i got back from school.. and back at home, i cannot study anymore...
Phone calls.. Sms... and many many more..
I switch i could off the phone.. but my mum has alr told me not to.. cuz she nids to find me..
That is why.. At night, is never a time for me to study...

And seriously.. why cant think of me a little?
Seriously.. I think respect goes in a both way..

Why are you avoiding me recently?
Is that because you dun like me?
Why?

That is the last message, written on the 2 July, 3 AM...
Seriously. at that time, i am alr asleep! How could i reply him? LOLL..

And also.. I tried to avoid him on any ways. cuz this is the only way for me to ignore him....
And do i like him? No..... If it is in a BGR state.. definitely a no no.. but if you talk about friendship..
I used to.. but if he continues to do that.. really.. i may want to give up on this friendship...

Well... I really wanna thank Weiquan, Esther, Hanafi and all many many.. who helped me through my work..
And also not to pry into my private life when i told them not to do so....
I love DBEN!!! HAHA....

A bunch of kids who i can play and trust.. LOVE YA FOLKS! XD

And also.. today is the last paper. after today, i will have to face up to the issue and talk to him again? If not.. I am really going to die die die.. LOLL

And also.. If i stress cannot get it off me.. I am really going to die alr.. HAHA..

Ok la.. have to go for study and get ready for my FINAL MST!!1 LOLL

Lots of love,
SiSi