ARGHHH.. i am so having so much craving for food ONCE AGAIN!!

WHY?!?!?!

I am stressed.. come on..
For wad???!!!

Lets see what i am having on my table right now...
1. Notebooks
2. Proposals
3. Reports
4. Theory Hwk
5. Letters
6. Dictationary...

Why cant my holiday filled with happiness and fun?
Why do i have to do all these boring things?!

ARGHHH....

AND WHEN CAN I CLEAR ALL THESE?!
THIS WEEK?!
NEXT WEKK?!

i doubted... hais..


And recently.. my life is in a mess.. Have been neglectin a lot of things.. i really dun know if i should go and solve it or not...

But all i know is.. i dun have the courage to go face this... I am afraid that it might hurt someone badly...

Having to this resort is not being i dun have the feelings anymore..
I am doing this because I felt that my confidence is all gone...

I want to find my confidence back.. and also to be fair...
I know that I will not be able to be fair.. So i decided to let it go..
No matter how much pain i am having.. I will still hold it on by myself...

To anomyous(you should know?!)

Doing that is not what i really want...
Maybe it could be really hurt at the beginning..
But i am sure time can help to get over it...

But the only i can confirm is.. the feeling, will NEVER change...
Pls trust this sentence...

And also.. I hope that... we could get back as good as new..
I really really hope that... but the courage of me doing it.. is not there at all...

I am so sorry if i have hurt you..
Right now, I am still feeling guilty.. VERY guilty..
Although many people say.. dun be.. there is not point of being guilty with what you have done.. just go with it.. and it will end..

But the guilt comes because you made me felt like.. I am the most evil person IN THE WHOLE WORLD!

But the only thing i can do is.. to apologise to you...
But i dun dare to say it in front of you.. because i dun have the confident and courage to hear the reply from you...

Lots of love,
SiSi
YEah! Yesterday was hectic.. total hectic..

woke up early in the morning to get ready..
HAD TO GO ALL THE WAY TO CITY HALL!
accompany Shankra and Leonard to get their dancing shoe..

And later rushed back to school for the Main Committee interview..
As the questions are confidental.. I shall not mention any of them in there.. but it's overall good..:)

OH YA!!!
after that, straightaway went for dance practice.. of course, went for brunch at ard 3 plus.. AHA.. PIZZA ONCE AGAIN!!!!

Practice dance till 6 plus, then start to learn how to do hair..
Well.. my hair looks ok.. except KAI said the fringe is a bit too thin.. Shall go get a thicker one.. HAHA..

Tested the floor at 6.30 and mock compeition start exactly at 7 PM..
Partnered with Benedict...
Finally felt like how a competition is about..
URESHIIII!!!

Dance pretty well i guess.:)
event ended at 8 plus.. but played a little with the gang.. and then left for home..
MY POOR CURFEW.. LOLL.. HAHA...

RIghts.. got to go.. and BRAINSTORM..
haha..

BYE BYE~~~

OH.. for more pics.. HAH.. go to http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=112119&id=664352487

Lots of love,
SiSi
Hmm. havent been updating recently...
Well.. Life is revolving dance and work..
Haven been having much time for ownself...

Gotten back my results.. Hmm.. not good... To me is not good?
But I am sure next sem, i can do better.. I PROMISE!! LOLL..

Was thinking if i should go for Dipolma Plus..
Wanted to go for the Threatre ones.. But dun know if mama will be letting me go or not.. SHALL BRAINSTORM HER! LOLL..

Oh.. YESTERDAY, GOTTEN THE NEW SPDS T-SHIRT!!
IT'S SO NICE!! GOSH.. haha...

wanna see more pics?
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/yamada.nanachan?v=photos&ref=profile

HERE!! HAHA.. lots of fun shots.. HAHA..

LATER GOING FOR CURRY FISH HEAD WITH WANGJUE!! YES! HAHA..
has been tempted to eat curry fish head for a damn long time..
First time eating this with friends.. HAHA..

THERE IS FORMATION LATER!! YEAH~~~!!!

haha.. cant control myself.. to think about formation.. LOLL..

anyway.. had a hearty talk with Shankra yesterday..
I am shocked about myself as well..
there are tons lots of things that i dun know about myself.. but after talking him..
I felt that i knew myself better.. HAHA..

Anyway.. HUNGRY NOW..
haha...

Hmm.. Dorinda gave me a book filled with all tips on guys and girls.. felt that it is quite useful.. HAHA.. shall share it when i am free...

ALRIGHTS...
CIAOZZXXX

Lots of love,
SiSi
My Dearest Leah Dizon's birthday is coming really really soon!!!

I think she is really pretty...
Although she is now a mother of a child.. But she is still the prettiest lady.. HAHA..
ok la.. a lot of singers to me are pretty.. LOLL..
But i juz love her eyes.. I just wish that i have her eyes..

Although she has a lot of AV audios.. But i am sure she loves singing.. HAHA..

Love all her songs!!

Otanjoubi Leah Dizon!

Lots of love,
SiSi


Hmmm...

Had a really interesting day.. LOLL...

But there is always some problems that are not solved at all...
The insecurity feeling is back again after.. in the afternoon...
It actually became stronger and stronger after that thing...

i dun know why.. But it just came...
Maybe because too much things are happening beside me recently....

Really really hope that I could solve it asap...
with no problems at all...
Hmmmmm.....

But this... is not only based on me..
it needs sth else to be able to solve the whole problem..

Jus hope eveyrthin will be fine..^^

Lots of love,
SiSi
YES~ Blogger is back to normal! HAHA..

Hmmm.. I am stresss.. really really stresssed..
This kind of stress is something i could NEVER describe with a few words...

Ever since last thursday, I have been stressed...
Lots and lots of memories were flying back into me...
And at night, I would just cry myself to sleep...

I guess.. this will only happen when you really really really miss that person whom means so much to you...

But frankly speaking.. all these, i have never told anyone..

Maybe you can say that I am a wonderful actress.. Sometimes i even ask myself i should go audition for Mediacorp..LOLL.. JKJK..

but seriously.. I really hope that i can just show myself to someone.. the real me..
It is not as if i am hiding now or sth..
It's just that.. all my inner side of me.. is never revealed.. I really nid something to let me out...

Well, Thanks to Yanting for listening to me last night...
Although you made me scared yesterday.. But I am still happy that at least you are there for me..
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

Well.. i guess it has to be that way?

Lots of love,
SiSi
Hmmm.. I am feeling slightly better now...^^ So happy...

Hmm.. i think i should be uploading tons and tons of picture up now.. HAHA..
It seems like I am lagging of a lot of things..^^

It is all the pictures that I had ever since MOmoko is here...


SO PRETTY RIGHT?
If i am not wrong.. This one is like so last year picture...
Imagine the baker.. gosh.. so smart can?


STRAWBERRY!!! So nice! Bought by Momoko for this time...
I am like eating so much when she put it in front of me.. HAHA...
SO EXCITED!


IS THAT ME? Hmm.. guess.. SLOWLY GUESS!! HAHA...


HERE!! HAHA.. This is really me la.. HAHA.. last time got dye before.. NOW CANNOT! ARGHH.. I am so going to dye my hair after my 18th birthday..


Manicure of Momoko's.. SO NICE RIGHT? Haiz.. I am so envying her... She can keep long fingernails.. BUT I CANT! ARGHH..


My Present for M.. HAHA


Make-up table at our ex-workplace.. HAHA.. I LOVE IT! It is like everything is in a suitcase.. HAHA


ITADAKIMASU!!! HAHA.. the sushi looks so delicious!!
Yup.. it's nice.. i think it is before i leave J.. HAHA


This one.. HAHA.. from the restaurant near my house.. HAHA... who wann go eat? CALL ME OK?!


Nice right? M bought it from J.. IT'S SO COMFORTABLE!!!


Bento made by me for M.. HAHA...


Cake shop in J.. OISHOO!!


It's being bought from the shop.. HAHA..
it's really nice.. with no doubt.. HAHA..


Another one.. HAHA..



Present from M.. HAHA.. IT"S SUPER NICE! I TELL YOU..


M's gadgets.. HAHA.. SO PINK RIGHT?! I AM SO ENVYING..


I LOVE THE STAR SHAPE!


seriously love the colourful thingy.. HAHA..


MAC.. i dun know why.. I really love MAC.. I like its lipgloss.. HAHA.. i dun know why.. HAHA>. IT"S JUS NICE LA! HAHA... makes my lip totally pouty..

Oh ya.. before i forget..
THERE IS A REALLY NICE BOOTS!


Nice right? Hmm.. surely people wun say is my leg.. BUT IT"S MINE.. HAHA..
THanks to M's photography skills.. HAHA...

M has been asking me whether she should get a blog for herself in english.. HAHA..
I am also like asking her if she wans or not.. HAHA..

HMM.. shall post more tomorrow! HAHA


Lots of love,
SiSi
Totally cannot stand it anymore..

I totally dun know how to say it in words....

And also.. I am having serious heachache now..
SINCE 2PM!!!

wth.. wth wth...
seriously dun know why ...

dun feel like... taking painkillers...
OVERALL....
I am not feeling good.. and that's it...

Lots of love,
SiSi
OMG.. OMG...
where can i actually go find something that I would totally love so much?

Well.. i did!!

haha.. Fuji has been such a cutie recently...
I didnt know that she would be so clever....

Guess what.. I locked her up with a "wall" at the Kitchen door..
Surprisingly, she managed to get out like.. 4-5 times... WITHOUT ANY SOUND!

Then later, she would just sit on my feet, and wag her little tails...
Where can I find something that i would love so much?

GOSH.. I LOVE HER OK?! LOLL...

I have been into dogs for like quite a long time lor....
Now, i am loving even more.. EVEN MORE!! GOSH.. HAHA...

Finished piano teacher....
Now is time to slack!!! SLACK!! HAHAHA....

Lots of love,
SiSi
Hmm.. Blogger is not working as usual....

Anyway.. WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME?!

Gosh...

Anyway..
went to school for dance....

I am like super late for dance..
Was supposed to be there for like.. 530..
ended up reaching at.. ard 7..
HAHA..

Well.. learned how to rumba walk..
AND MY LEGS ARE LIKE ACHEING..

Hais.. dun think i will be able to sleep early tonight..
There are still dance tomorrow afternoon..
FORMATION TEAM!!!

Yoshi..
Looking super forward to it.. HAHA...

Lots of love,
SiSi
I really dun know why Blogger just hate me so much...

It has been a long time since it is really functioning properly..
To be frank.. it seems like everything are not doing well...

Facebook, Hotmail.. So what is next?


Alright... WENT TO CHALET yesterday...
Well.. You can say it's boring.. You can also say it's fun...

Of course, it's nice having fun with the girls.. And dinner was fine...
But the waiting is HORRIBLE!

I waited for my mum for like.. an hour or so? And i continue to hear her nag and nag and nag on the way home..

Seriously.. WHy cant i juz stay over?
It's not as if the guys in the room are gonna rape me or something?

I seroiusly think that.. my blog is not having a lot of pictures.. So from now on.. I am so going to start putting in pictures.. and remake my blog skin..
Cuz i think it's pink.. BUT IT IS TOO PLAIN!! Gosh..

But i am gonna rush for dance pretty soon...
So i gonna just post till here.. and wait till dance is over.. and i should just start looking for glam blogskins..

WOULD ANYONE HELP ME OUT WITH DOING THE BLOGSKINS?!

I would appreciate if anyone would wanna do it for me....^^

Lots of love,
SiSi
ARGGHH.. Why is blogger back to its own self again?
Wth...

Anyway...
This week is totally Fab!

Monday is done..

TUESDAY
It's pretty boring for tuesday....
Just.. Go out.. Slack.. and blah blah..

WDENESDAY
went back to school for... HMMMM....
lunch.. and then went over to Vivo to meet up Yanting..
To cheer up her!! YEAH!

Then went over to Tivona's place and had a heart to heart girl talk..
i really like that.. HAH.. but sadly.. these can only be said when my parents are not in Singapore...

Thursday
Went to JP in the afternoon and start shopping like a mad person..
thanks to yanting for accompanying me^^
anyway.. managed to get a dress and a shoe!
YES! FINALLY! HAHA.. was like looking super forward to it..

FRIDAY
Friday is amazing a day that is really nice..
I woke up pretty late.. and forget to do something early in the morning..
And later... in the evening, went out..
I guess.. it is something that i have never done before?
Yup..^^

Yanting was like telling me.. I am stalking.. i am stalking..=.= LOLL
that is pretty lame..
and when i reach home and called her, she has fallen asleep alr!
WTH!

Anyway.. TANOSHIMI DESU!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi
YES! BLOGGER IS BACK TO ITS OWN SELF! YOSHI!

Anyway.... has been really boring...
Had piano lesson... and then went out....

then..... reach home.. and start to act like an idiot in front of the webcam...
And even ended up getting cam-whore.. HAHA..

Anyway.. today is practically boring...

Was on the net.. and then on phone with YT..

YT! Wake up.. not worth it.. seriously.. You can find someone better..
This goes same to my fellow classmate.. WAKE UP! DUN BE SO SAD!!!

Hmm.. picture time.. i know.. i haven been putting up picture for a super dber long time.. CUZ I AM SO LAZY.. MUHAHA..


Result of my cam-whoring.. HAHA..
I hate the centre-splitting.. I guess i didnt comb my hair properly after shower...^^


Picture taken yesterday.. IN JURONG SECONDARY!
With my Chinese Teacher, Ms. Wong.. And my BFF.. YANTING!!
To Yanting: I want to see you smile like that everyday.. Dun cuz of that.. you make yourself suffer.. NOT WORTH IT!!!


A semi class photo^^
Can spot me?
HAHA.. Mr. Lim standing the most outside..
And the 3 Gorgeous teacher.. HEHE..
Ms Lappen, Mrs Aidil and Ms WONG!!
HAHA.. god.. i miss 4/3 HAHA..

Hmm.. should i go for dance practice tomorrow.. or should i slack?
But seriously. i have nth to do.. HAIS..
I want to slack.. i want to go out and have fun..
ANYONE?!?!?!

Lots of love,
SiSi