Welll.. haven been updating for like.. 2 DAYSS...
Cuz lots of things happened after Wednesday...

So.. What happened??

WEDNESDAY
Had school from 8 to 11.. then went to clubhouse to slack.. decided not to go for GEMS cuz i am having a serious headache and sorethroat....

"Yuto-kun" was absent.. so didnt managed to do anything.. HAHA>.

Slacked and then went walking around.. and then go for dance..
Jive is killing me seriously......

Had our FIRST Committe Meeting..
And its like a pass-down thingy....
So i managed to get taught or rather being told of my duties and everything..
And had to say.. it's like quite a workload......
But i can say.. i will be able to manage it rather well.. if i really want it.....

SO.. I AM ALRIGHT!!!!!

THURSDAY
Had lesson from 8-5.. AND ITS TIRING!!

School start from 12... but my piano starts at bloody 8!!!!!

And i am seriously so tired.. that i dun have energy to listen during class..
and" Yuto-kun" peeped at me once? LOLLL. so random.....

Practiced jive.. and Melvin is seriously killing us!! LOLL..
danced for like.. couple of mins.. and my legs were damn sore.. GOSH..
My bloody.. 3 inches heels..
KILLING ME!!!!! LOLL....

But when i get home.. Daddy showed me the Latin DVD that he bought for me..... and i am like.. OMG OMG.. cuz that is like a treasure.. LOLLLLL.....

FRIDAY
Saw "Yuto-kun" on the bridge while walking with Ben..
THAT BEN SMACKED MY HEAD WITH HIS BOOK!
BEN! You are seriously getting from me! LOLL.. dun think i dun dare hor! Bully me.. LOLLL....

Walked all the way to t22.. for lesson...
and had breakfast at CASS..
the food there is really nice.. HAHAHA..
I LIKE IT!!!

Lesson ended like.. at 12nn.. then i dashed to clubhouse.. to snatch my "tian wei" LOLLL.. Wanted to sleep.. but ende dup watching Titanic.. and crying..

Stupid Yon.. danced the Ring Ding Dong.. when i am trying to cry out...
And Gary was like screaming, giving me a fright.. HAHAHAA....

But thats our spds people! HAHA.. always try to be funny.. and make laughters...
But i still managed to cry.. LOLLLL......

using.. 2 tissue papers.. for this whole movie..
Hmm.. normally i would use 2 box? HAHAA..
jkjk......

But its a nice movie.. shall do movie review soon..
Tomorrow? Now very tired ar....

Went for dance.. with gastric.. but held on..
And fell down on pelvis bone.. GOSH.. that hurts...
and i am like.. omg.. cold sweat coming out..

But someone is really nice enough to say..
"Ya.. its jus her another show.."

Well.. I guess.. since you dun know anything.. you should just keep it to yourself.. and not make much comments...

Cuz seriously... for me to leave the dance floor.. it means that something is really not right...

I juz dun wanna say it out.. and Martin feel guilty cuz its partially my fault....

So.. yea.....

I am not a faker for your info:)
If i say "PAIN!" it means it really hurts...

AND I MEAN IT!

Thank you to Kristal.. Venessa.. and my kind captain Peiwen for caring for me..
Oh.. Not to forget.. Kenogi and Joanne also.. HAHA..
Chiew Hui also!
God.. i got to write speech alr.. So many people to thank.. LOLL..

See? Thats spds big family.. people care for each other, one another.....
That is call team work...

Solo wun give you anything..

SO I JUST LOVE FORMATION!!! AND.. WE FINISHED OUR 'GENTLEMEN'!!!

Cant wait for our debut.. HAHA.. which is 1 mth ++ awayyy.. haha...
shall start to lose weight.. HAHA.....

so i can look good on my first performance!!! YEAHHAHH!!!!!!

alright.. got to go sleep.. so tired alr.. HAAH..

my dad's chilli crab is really nice!!
Arigatou.. Tousan...

And.. my dad asked me to dance gentlemen for him..
and one more thing.. MY SIS FINISH LEARNING MY CHA CHA ROUTINE!!!!
HAHA.. so happy....

Lots of love,
SiSi
Today just got like.. something so so so shocking....

People who tend to be close to you, will betray or hurt you the most..
I guess this is like the GOLDEN line..

So true!
I always thought that that person is like the someone's goodfriend..
But behind the back and bitch about others like siao..

What is that.. if you are so jealous of what we are having..
Then go do something about it.. but not bitch about it..

Or rather.. if you have anything not happy with me.. come and do it face to face to me.. dun do it un-table.. that is so unglam and so not gentlemen....

If you put it on a challenge, i would respect you as my opponent..
But if you dun have that bloody guts or rather, no balls... You can juz leave and dun leave any comments....

Bitching, everyone knows how to .. juz tat they wanna see how much they wanna use it..
Please dun force me to use it fully on you..
Cuz i dun see the point of doing it..
cuz we have like bloody remaining 2 yrs being together..
seriously no point.. LOLL..

I hope you seriously get a life luh....


P.S shall post about other things tomorrow.. cuz dun wanna mess with the bad mood..

Lots of love,
SiSi
I am sure you guys can see wad i am going to write through my blog?
This is juz how i feel luh.. cuz i am seriously bottling up tons lots of things...

People has been faker and faker.. seriously..
I mean if you have anything not happy or jealous of me.. or with me..
Just come straight into my face and say or talk about it.. or you can juz get your own life!

Dun come and mess with my friendships with others..
WHat is this?
You think you have that mouth, i dun have it?

Seriously... Dun get too overbroad..
If not you watch your back...

Dun say i never warn you or wadeva shit..
I am doing it now!! IN MY BLOG!!

If you ever dare to mess with my life, i am going to make sure that you regret coming into this world...

Is like seriously wads the problem with you?
So wad you got everything?
You got money, so wad?

But your character and attitude sucks...


Dun even give me that kind of " I own the whole world" look..
You think everyone like you?
Dream on!!
People juz start to think another side of you!!!

So before you do any f-ing actions, think of your CONSEQUENCES!!
Dun in the end come to my face and cry or say sorry..
Dun even think i will let you off that easily..

Lots of love,
SiSi
TOday's lesson is like so boring..
Thermofluids is still alright.. having some activity..
But the Engineering Material is like having a serious attitude..

How can he actually just close the laptop.. when others haven even come up?
If they are on their sit.. and they are using com, closing it.. is still alright..

but now.. is like.. they are not even on the seat!!
Gosh.. nvm...

None of my business anyway...

But anyway....
ITS SERIOUSLY BORING!~!!!!

I seroiusly cant stand it..

LOLL.. HAHAHA...

So during maths lesson, i am going to blog all i want..

I am seeing Nakajima Yuto-san now...
Ok.. eyes met a few times.. and electrical shock for like a few mins..
But thats how i feel luh.. HAHAHA...

SO FUNNY!!!
GOSH.. HAHAHAHA..

ok ok.. shall respect teacher!!
Cuz i am a good good student:)

Lots of love,
SiSi













































I seriously think that being in school is like.. HEAVEN to me.. LOLLL...
Cuz i could do lots of things i would love to do..
Like crap with friends, dance, and even do things that i wun do..
HAHA...



So now....... I am almost looking forward to everyday's lesson..
Although the lessons would be bored or something.. there are always something that i will be looking forward to....



Of course, in thelife, there will be a lot of things that i would regret..
No matter if it is FRIENDSHIP or RELATIONSHIP.
But to me.. All of these are a process of life..
With all these, you will learn and grow up..
If you keep running away from it..
You will not grow AT ALL....
I think.. we should really look forth..
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OH YA!! I watched Hana Yori Dango Final on my Mio TV today.. HAHA.. the movie..

This movie is like totally AWESOME!!!

Matsumoto Jun is like SSOOOO CUTEE!!!

So is the female lead... She is so cute also.. especially when she is thinking through if Doumouji is really someone she should spend the rest of her life with....

Of course, through is... Learnt tons...

In a relationship, no matter what happens, it needs two parties to be able to go through it..

As long as the couple stay together, anything, or rather, everything can be solved...

I love a phrase in there...

"As long as you share the problem with the other half, the burden on the problem is halved..."

Precisely..

Thats why.. friends is also needed in the picture.. sometimes, people will think that, adding burden to others is a bad thing..

But sometimes, think the other way.. they will feel that if you are willing to open your heart to your friend, she will think that you trust her tons.. and not just a surface type of friend......

ALRIGHT!!!! Shall not crap here.. LOLL..

Is really looking forward to MONDAY.. and the new week...

Lots of love,
SiSi

I MANAGED TO GET VICE CAPTAIN IN DS!!!!

OMG... so happy!!!
I thought i would nvr make it.. but ended up.. i managed to make it..

So.. GARY is now our DS president..
He seriously worth it luh!!!

And Peiwen is my head.. CAPTAIN! Pretty surprised.. thought Ahsley would continue to be Captain.. But ended up she turned to be the treasurer:) That is good!!!

Yihan is the head of secretary..... and Charles is the vice...
And Leonard became the QM.. hahaha... was joking with him that.. the Clubhouse would be in a mess.. LOLL... But i believe with Ass QM, Joanne...
THe clubhouse would be in order:)

AND DON AND VENESSA ARE THE HRS!
So i shall be starting to expect to recieve emails from them about the SPDS updates pretty soon:)

AND BARRY AND LEPING IS IN THE EVENTS!!!

I am seriously looking forward to more and more and more events coming up!!!
Especially next yr's camp!!
HAHA.. THE NIGHT WALK!!!!!

After all.. is still happy about able to get the post thingy.. HAHA.. SHALL CONTINUE TO WORK HARD NO MATTER WAD!!!

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Alright.. here supposed to give a "friend" whom used to be really close to him.. but now.. is like not close anymore..:

I know to you maybe I back-stabbed you.
But you didnt give me a chance to explain my reason. You trust to listen things not from my mouth.

Though i promised not to say it out.. but i ended up doing it.
Have you thought of the reason why i did it?
Do you have an idea of why?

But i guess.. Time can prove that i am not someone whom will back-stab people.
Cuz i think for others.. if i dun think.. i would not back off at all...
It's not that i am a loser or sth.. i juz think that its not nice..
To you.. you think is nth.... but i think friendship is more important then just being happy on the physical.

If anything happens to me.. i would choose to listen to both party and not one side only.... because i trust that person will not back-stab me.. unless both party have clarify... But since you dun wan the friendship.. i gues.. there is nth i can do.. That is your choice.. i choose not to explain it to you.. cuz if you dun wan to do it.. or fix it, i find it no point doing anything about it...

But thanks for letting me the other side of my life... Though i envy like hell.. but i dun wan to touch it.. even if i am eligible for it..

To my another friend, whom i hope that i could talk to her.... but she didnt?

Thank you so much for being there for me when i once needed you.. but now, i guess, yo uthink i am not a good person?

I dont know what have you said.. but i still trust that you didnt betray me..
You once say that:" dun worry, it will be btw me and you."

But now, it seems like it is not like this?
But it is fine..
i really want to ask you about it.. but yo useems like.. you prefer him more than me..
Although you told me.. OMG.. i am so against him.. But ended up.. you still find him better than me..
I guess i shall just take it that he is a better friend than me..

I know i may suck in some way.. but i believe what i do, is good for you.
I am thinking for a friend, and not telling you cuz i can gain something..
I gain nothing but guilt actually.

I always believe that, i think for you.. but i never feel that you thought for me..
To you.. I may be someone who is immature.. think of things that are so stupid.. But that is me..
I tried to accept for who you are..
But ended up.. you rejected me for who i am?
I dun know luh.. but thats how i feel..

So yeah..
But i still we could talk it out.. cuz i trust you.. truthfully trust you.. cuz you are my friend...

ALRIGHTS.. DONE!!! HAHA... SHall end here!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi

P.S I LOVE SPDS!!
FINALLY! Momoko is being found.. she is in Yokohama..
That TAME.. made me so worried for her..

Slept at around 2 plus to deal with her issue.. andfinally everything is done.. HAHA..
I shall be dealing with my own stuff now? LOLL..
well, school is fine?
Today's class start at 8.. and ends at 11.. and now i am in the library, slacking, waiting for gems to start.. LOLL..

OH YA! I SERIOUSLY NID TO BITCH ABOUT SOMETHING!!!!

One of the guys who is in the same lecture as me..
LOOKS JUST LIKE NAKAJIMA YUTO!
GOSH...

ok luh.. maybe some angle of his looks like Yuto la.. but after all not so much?
Yuto is much more fairer than him.. he is a little tan..

And also.. that class is like.. gosh.. so noisy! LOLL..
NO OFFENCE FOLKS ( if you happen to pop by suddenly?! loll)

but i enjoyed the class though.. not like DMA.. everyone was lie so quiet.. then so stress.. LOLL..

NOW...
I am so hoping the WHOLE HEY!SAY!JUMP or rather, the whole JOHNNY'S ENTERTAINMENT can be her classmate.. LOLLL..

ok.. shall keep dreaming:)

Lots of love,
SiSi
Yup.. first day of school..
IS SUPER SLACKY!! HAHA..

but i have been rather blur recently.. dun know why..
maybe cuz i am too busy and emo?

recently momoko is also very emo..
But she doesnt want to tell me why...
Really hope that she could just say it out and so that she can feel better and i can help her out..
But its really tough when she doesnt want to say..
she is just like me. when she set her mind, she wun want to say..
But if she set her mind to say, she trust that person very much..

ANYONE!! SAVE ME!!! LOLL

Lots of love,
SiSi
just finished watching this drama....


by Nakayama Yuma.. Can i say this guy is damn cute?


After watching this show.. OMG.. I really cry till my whole clothes wet.. LOLL..




So the story is about Yuma being a vampire..
And his mission is to come to earth, find his lady and suck her blood, to get the eternity life..

But he found something while doing this.. His teacher, is actually his lover 10 years ago.. He choose to give up on his eternity then to suck her blood..

爱一个人，是要他快乐，而不是要把他永远留在身边。
就算现在分开了，可是回忆是永远的。

就算哪一天，其中的一个人，离开了，另一个也要好好的活下去。

永远的活着，不算是真正的活着。
去快乐，去悲伤，就算是受伤了，也要活出你的精彩。

就算是禁忌的爱情，也有甜蜜的地方。
可是，只要人活得精彩，就不会在乎这些了。

this is really how i feel after watching this..
Totally understand what is the real meaning of love..
It is not about making that person yours only..
But also to let the other person be happy even when you are not with that person..

Even though not being together is a pain.. But as long as you can see that person's smile forever, and you know that not being together is the best for her, then just let her be..

友情也是在信任上建立的。
没有了信任，什么事情都谈不了。

Well.. this drama really teach me tons of things la.. CAN?! LOLL


NAKAYAMA YUMA!
This guy is super super cute!! KAWAIII!!!
He is with the B.I SHADOWS.. WITH KENTO! God.. did i mention that Kento is also cute? LOLL..

Yuma is only 15 yrs old.. 2 yrs younger than me..
HAHA.. but nvm luh.. I am willing to date him even if he is younger than me.. LOLLL.. HAHA..

So yea~~~~


God.. SO COOL!!
KAKKOI.. KAKKOI!!! OMG..*faint*..
HAHA.. ok la.. my fangirl side is here again.. HAHA..

NO CHOICE LUH!! CANNOT STOP LUH!! HAHA..


This is Nakajima Kento..
可愛いとカコイです！！！
大好き大大大好き！

Haha.. ok... i m being idiot alr.. LOLL>. HAHA..

SHOULD STOP NOW!!! got to practice piano.. LOLL>.<

Lots of love,
SiSi
Hearing what Momoko told me..
I was totally hurt..

I guess my guess and predication is always accurate...
I guess i can help out in the temple or something..

Anyway.. i guess what i did, made me feel at least a little more relieve.
If Momoko didnt say that to me.. i think i will forever live in guilt and feel full of sorry..

But i would rather be living in guilt, than to ended up knowing the truth..
Truth is always the most painful ones..

The shining outer mask is always being envied.. but the inner is forever not being seen...
I guess showing the outer mask is always seen because they want to hide themselves from being hurt..

But even when i am having my outer mask out.. i still get hurt..
So maybe taking off the both mask would be something good?

Right now, you can just say that i am a walking corspe..
doing what i was asked to..
even when it come to that.. it ended up like that..

Maybe my life is filled with failure in some ways?

Just hope i can GET OVER IT...
before tomorrow starts.. if not, i may get suspecious again..

Lots of love,
SiSi
YEsterday was awesome.. Went Sentosa and had plenty of fun.. HAHA..

Met up with Wangjue at JE station and go all the way to Habour Front..
On the way there.. I was saying how pissed i was with Barry.. LOLL

And when i saw Barry.. we tried to sort things out.. AND WE ARE BACK TO FRIENDS AGAIN!! HAHA..

Benedict, Barry, Wangjue and Me were the first few who arrive...
So we went shopping at VivoMart.. while Kenogi and Irene joined us later..

Had some shopping.. and by that time, Gary joined us.. HAHA..

After that, we get read yto go SENTOSA!!!

Had a game of volleyball at first
Well.. went for a "match" and the winner take chicken.. HAHA..

but ended up... no one follow that rule. LOLL.. we just went on to eat the one we like.. HAHA..
Daryl came after.. with 2 of his girlfriends.. LOLL..

And later......
BACK TO VOLLEYBALL AGAIN.. LOLLL..
and finally into the water..
DIdnt want to BE in the water. instead. wants to watch people get thrown..
Sadly.. Barry threw meinto the water.. making me super duber wet....

Had a little fun.. While the guys keep saying I am Horny..
WHEN I AM NOT!!

Wth..
after that.. rested for a while under the tent.. and then chit-chat..
AND WENT FOR SAND DRAWING!


SPDS WAS HERE!! Drawn by Wangjue:)



Me with my name.. Ok.. i look super weird when i am dripping wet.. HAHA...



The group there:)

Leping, Barry and Me...
I LOOK HORRIBLE! GOSH..


Me and Shankra.. Gosh.. his eyes really looks like goldfish. HAHA..



Wangjue and me:)


Kenogi and me.. HAHA..
I suddenly find that my calves look damn nice.. HAHA..

ALRIGHT!!! END OF IT ALR LA! HAHA..

if wanna see more unglam pics..
CLICK HEREEE!!!!


Lots of love,
SiSi
WADDA HELL?!?!?!

recently.. none of the things i do are smoothly done..

1. People under me are not doing their job properly.. They are certificated.. I am not.. yet they make idiot mistakes..
2. People NEVER keep their promise.. said one thing, do another thing.. and i hate people like that..
3. I am grounded.. YEA!! FCUK! All cuz of a word BABY.. all my hard-earned freedom is gone like shit.. THought that nth is wrong right? DUN EVER THINK I AM GOING TO FORGIVE YOU!

Totally have no idea.. how much i have gone through to have this freedom right now.. and now.. everything is back to point zero..
So this is wad you wan right?! Dun blame me for doing all these to you..
all i can say is.. YOU DESERVE IT!

I wil never forgive people who mess with my freedom..
Because you are borned with freedom.. therefore you dun give a damn to people who dun have freedom.. and you never know how hard they work/ do to get what they had..
Now seeing them without freedom.. you just know how to ask.. why your mum so strict one huh?!

YOU NEVER KNOW the hard work i have put in behind it!
Fine. since this is the final answer you want.. dun blame me for giving you this..

I HATE PEOPLE WHO BREAK PROMISE..
you said no outsiders.. you even bold it out..
yet you do it..

I wonder.. if i go do it.. you will be bitching about me all over right? to everyone right?
SO you can la..
Who the hell you think you are?!

I dun care if you are going to make it or not.. i just hate the fact that you didnt even ask others for ideas.. so wad if you make this?! so wad?! you think only you can make this?!

DUN EVEN THINK ABOUT IT..

you better watch it tomorrow.. if you step on my line.. dun say i never give you chance..

its a bad day afterall..

Lots of love,
SiSi
Just a couple of days ago... something big happened to me...
Or rather.. something that made me regret happened...

I thought i could get over it..
I thought all the heavy workload that I am doing now will help me to recover from my sadness..
But it seems like.. it's not doing well..

I tried eating my favourite food..
But all i was doing is making me fatter and fatter..
Yup.. I gained 2 kg...
Just imagine how many fats and carbonhyrates i have stuffed inside of me.

In front of my parents, i have to act like someone who is really cheerful.. making them laugh all the time..
In front of my sister,i have to be a role model for her to look up to....
In front of my friends, i have to cheer them up..

Why am I always showing a mask?
Why cant i just weep in front of them, cry loudly in front of them and ask them to give me a hug to say everything will be fine?

That is because, i dont want others to feel unhappy with me...
But it's rather tiring to hide it in front of your parents..

Well.. I thought i can get over it.. like what i always say..
But getting over it doesnt help AT ALL..

It just make me feel worse.
Everytime i stop to relax, it will make me stress once more..

I thought i can do like what i said...
But Apparently, I cannot...

I thought since last week, i managed to do it well already.
But it doenst.. it just make my life even more worse and makes me hate for who I am...

Well......
I hope i could find a quay somewhere.. and RIP...

I am sure.. give me a few more days.. I can get over it..
Because there are lot more of things ahead of me.. needing me to do...

If i just give up because of this "small" obstacles, i will disappoint of lot of people who once look up to me...

GANBARIMASU!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi