Went for a competition organised by the NP..

Wasnt confident during the competition.. because i only have 2 wks to practice.. the routine.. which is a little more tougher than the Kulai Competition..


And also.. its open.. so I am competiting against my seniors.. Peiwen, Don, Nicole and Zhenglin..





Well.. managed to get into finals.. but didnt get any medals..


but i am happy enough... to be able to stand on the same stage as my seniors..


Thanks so much to Kenny for partnering me for the 2 competitions.. and in both competition.. we managed to get something..



COngras to Nicole and Zhenglin for getting 3rd..
And to Jennifer and Skye for getting 2nd and CHAMPION!

really.. Jennifer is now my role model.. i am looking up to her in dancing.. HAHA..

and its also very sweet of her.. to help me out with the partnership issue...
So now.. i am working super hard for the upcoming Nationals..

JIAYOU!!! HAHA..

P.S the new routine is a killer.. so tough! BUT I AM GOING TO WORK HARD HARD FOR IT!!!

Lots of love,
SiSi
YES!! MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!!! HAHAHA...

Well.. went for EVE celebration with Beatrice, Sara and Zemin..
That Zemin so li hai.. reached TAKA when it is... 9 plus? and when every restuarants are closing down...

Had no where to have our dinner..
And the most angry part is.. they actually keep asking.. eh.. where to go eat ar, organiser(which is me) LOLL..

DULAN!!!

HAHA..

But later, Sara suggest go Newton..while Zemin suggest go Bugis..

and our choice is.. BUGIS!!!

Had steamboat..
its nice luh..
HAHA..

But Zemin is so quiet during dinner.... dun know why..
Me and Beatrice are like laughing and laughing at our own jokes like some stupid idiots.. HAHA...


Later went to ILUMA to play arcade.. Went to play TAIGO with Sara.. but see Beatrice and Zemin got nth to do.. So gave Beatrice play with Sara while me and Zemin went to play some stupid moronic Mario game.. LOLL..

And I am practically screaming and 'AH-ing' all the way.. CUZ I KEEP CRASHING MY CAR~!!

Later, had another game of TAIGO.. and had no choice but to go off cuz the arcade is closed...

Later.. dun know where to go.. Zemin say.. lets do numbers...starting from me..
And very retarded.. ended up is him deciding where to go.. LOLLLLLL...


Played Audition with Sara and Beatice while Zemin play L4D..
OMG.. Sara and Beatrice are like so lihai!
The two of them keep playing so fast de.. then i like totally cannot catch up. STRESS LA!


HAHA.. but had a good time:)
Later cab home..
First Sara, then Zemin then me.. THEN.. beatrice.. hahahaha...

Christmas Eve was fun..


HAHA.. although got a little pissed with the late part.. but this is also sth that i cannot predict.. well.. no one can predit.. so no one getting angry..


WELL.. THIS IS THE FIRST CHRISTMAS EVE WITH FRIENDS.. AND.. I LOVE IT!!!!

HAHAH..

Lets see some pics.. haha...


Me.. getting ready in Beatrice house.. camwhoring..



I look fat here.. thanks to Beatrice's cousin.. LOLL


Me in the TAKA toliet waiting for Sara.. Camwhoring..


Beatrice and me.. She looks like selling her boob away.. opps.. HAHA..

Well, i guess today i totally managed to see that person's real side....
Once that person said as if he/she can be there for you.. no matter wad...

BULLSHIT!
all i can say is that..

now i know.. all this cannot be trusted...
after such a short period of time.. you actually could juz get someone else and said the same old words..

Now i finally know that.. people can never be trusted..
No matter who that person is.. and how you used to trust..

Trust is based on time..
TIME can show everything..
In this case.. time show that you are nth but an asshole....
Oh.. and i have to say.. this suits you a lot a lot..

Once i even thought of forgetting it.. and lets be friends all over again..
But now.. this is totally out of my mind after i have seen sth like that..

I must have eaten wrong medicing to believe wadeva shit you told me..
Ridiculous right?
Well.. lets see how many more people can you use this trick on..
Good luck to you..

All i can say is.. take care..
cuz wadeva things you have done.. will come back to you one day..

Lots of love,
SiSi
I juz dun get the reason why.. recently my life sucks...

SERIOUSLY.. SUCKS...

i mean... i get emotionally affected easily..
And i get very emotional..

Well.. and i get pissed off damn easily...

But i am fucking pissed off when people juz want it their way when they know its is not possible.. and they think they deserve it..

HEY! WAKE UP!
THe world is NEVER revolving around you..
Wadeva you wan you get it..

And why care so much who is when?
Does that matter to you alot?

Why do you have to make a big fuss out of it?
You think you are the only person down there who has other issue to be done?
You think others dun have?

Ya.. you are the best... biggest.. congras...

Who the f do you think you are who deserve all these?
You think i dun have all this shit?
I also have right?
So now... you wan everything to be in your way.
and the way you talk is like f-ing bastard..

YA.. the world is so yours..
One day.. i should juz let wadeva i am having now.. and give it to you..

Like that you can get even more things le..
HAPPY?!

Lots of love,
SiSi
Lately.. A lot of problem popped out like that..
Its not even my business... yet i am putting it on me.. and making me stress like shit..

Is like.. totally not worth it..
Tried to explain it..
Tried to say the reasons..
But seems like no one tend to understand how i was thinking..
And instead.. they think i am thinking too much.. or being selfish..

But i am not..
Because.. i dun wan the same old hurtful route to happen again to anyone around me..
But it seems like I am bothering too much and i am juz being an idiot down there thinking so many things..

I guess maybe letting them fall will be the best way to do..
Only when you are hurt or totally hurt by it.. you will learn the lesson...

I guess this is the only way..

I guess people juz dun appreciate wad i have done.
They juz think i am someone who is being stupid and idiot..

I really hope i could juz evaporate from this world.. and vanish.. so that i wun see so much problem and trouble..
And i wun even have to give in or put in any effort...

I wun even give a damn to wad is happening around me..
Advice i hear from other further prove to me that wadeva i say is right...
But will you ever listen?

Now, i dun know wad to say..
I dun know wad to do..
I think a bunch of people are just down there laughing at me for being stupid...

There must be a bunch of people being happy for wad i am in right now..

Juz feel like stabbing myself.. juz at the centre of my chest.. and let the blood flow off like that.. no point living in this world.. when no one understand wad i am thinking and my intention..
Work so hard for wad?
No point..
juz end off..

Lots of love,
SiSi
Juz got back from the Kulai Competition....

Yeah.. I m being too nosey...
But look.. Who is the one who came up with all the saying: " Please make sure that V will stop smsing my brother.. I am sure she will."

Is because of this line, i want to send this kind of stupid mail..
Why must let you look down on V?
Who are you?

You arent even with her 24 hrs..
How would you know wad kind of person she is?
Yeah right.. Your brother is always the right one.. I doubt luh..

During the talk, i keep pushing the blame, althought you keep saying you are not..
but come on la.. You know how much?
I am sure if you know.. You wun even sit down there and talk...

Yes.. you cannot control him..
But see.. who is the one who say that he wun.. and you will make sure he wun de..
Cuz you said you will MAKE SURE..
and since you said it.. i willt ake you for account..

I also wun wan to keep sending this kind of emails..
You think i so free, dun nid to study for my mst ar?

So nice its is end.. then juz let it be..
See how lor..
I doubt that you will end it well.. hope you will be happy with wad you are doing now...

P.S thanks for knowin i am trying help.. But being there is no use when he sms.. OK?
Get the fact right...

Lots of love,
SiSi
I juz realised, recently a lot of things happened..
I cannot be myself..
I wanted to be my true self.. But i juz cannot..

I had to bear responsibility to almost everything..
Family, friends, Work, Studies...

I want to cry, stone, emo and even be angry..
But i cannot.. Cuz i know.. some people juz need me more than i need them..
I keep telling myself.. I need to be strong enough so that people can depend on me..
but now, i am really tired.. I want to depend on ours as well!
But i dun know how to...

I guess i am too used to let others depend on me..
Yes.. i may be a little stubborn at times..
but deep inside, once i care for that person, i will care with all my heart..

But sometimes, when you are alr hurt, you stil have to act like nth happen. its tough..
Its as if testing my own patience and endurance..

I want to cry.. But parents wun even bother..
Everytime the tears want to come out.. i juz had to suck it back...
Everytime i want to vent my anger out.. It juz cannot come out.. cuz i know.. if i do.. the whole situation will go crazy...
Everytime i want to throw tantrum... I juz held on.. cuz i scare people will get pissed off with me..

I guess everything to me.. is how others think about me..
I dun know why am i so conscious about what i am doing..
I dun know wad has really gotten into me..

I really hope one day. i could juz sit down and cry the hell out of me.. because i want to be a normal person who has the feelings. and not acting out everything...
BUt for now.. myself is not so important alr..
wait till its time.......

Lots of love,
SiSi
I dun know why.. I recently is very into Leo Ku..(古巨基）


Watched the Pearl Princess for dun know how many times..


Watched Romance in the rain for dun know how many times also.. but still wan to watch...


I think is mostly cuz of him..





I juz find his kissing scenes damn nice..


He looks like he is enjoying it.. LOLL..


How i hope my bf can kiss like him!! HAHAH..





Ok luh.. he is cute as well.. Lets talk about ROMANCE IN THE RAIN





He looks damn cute luh.. haha..









Above are the main leads..
From the left: Alec Su, Ruby Lin, Vicky Zhao, Leo Ku...

SEE?! I told you.. he is cute.. haha.. pretty face.. hahaha..
and a good kisser!! OPPS... haha
He and VIcky is like a good pair.. haha.. LOVE IT:) HAHA..

AND NEXT!!!

Pearl Princess III
Ok luh.. i dun really love the girl.. haha.. but she look cute though...



Ok.. i think leo dun suit the Qing Dynasty hairstyle.. HAH..
i seriously think he suits the modern Shanghai style.. HAHAHA..
cute look too:)

BUT I LOVE SEEING HIM KISS!
If he kiss me oneday.. i will fly up in the sky man.. LOLL.. hahaha...

hope to see more of his show.. hahaha..
love him much:)

Lots of love,
SiSi

After so long later, i plucked up this courage to write this down.

"She..... She thinks too much, she asked for the end, and now, she ask for a patch back."

This line truely and serously hurt me...

Not to mention anything..

How can you say something like this?

I think you dont really know me well.. You dun even know wad kind of person I really am....

Fine..

I guess.. this is the end of us.. the end of the friendship as well..

I only want you to understand that, you are not the only one who is hurt..

I only want you to know.. in this world there are tons and tons of problems.. that are waiting for we humans to solve..

If you always use 'lets get over it' to end a topic.. no one can stand you or want to solve problem with you.

You may think.. I dont like you as much as i say...

But if i dun do it like this, will you even notice the serousness in it?

Until when i say that or even do it, you start to know that hey! this is serious! I have to solve it now! But before that, have you ever thought of it?

I can say.. no.. you haven.. and you dun even know that where you are in the wrong until now..

Have always been waiting for the time when we can get back.. but does it even happen? I can say. NO..

Wadeva you said, juz went down the drain.and it never come arise..

I guess.. this is the end..

Farewell my friend...

Farewell to your relationships, no matter is friendhsip or anything...

Just let it end, and next itme when you see me and you ignored me, i will just take it as someone whom i dun know at all...

Farewell...

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Try to dump my feeling down.. juz felt a lot recently..

I know MST is coming pretty soon..

So i decided that i should clear my mind before MST and totaly chiong for it. HAHA..

Now, one is gone.. here come another...

hais. i think i should just leave it for later or tomorrow for further blogging..XD

Lots of love,
SiSi

KAWAIII!!!
This is my dearest Chinen Yuuri!!
HAHAHA....

Yesterday is his birthday...
OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!!

He has turned from that picture, who is so cute and cheerful.. to someone who is cool and cute at the same time!


KAKKOI+KAWAII!!!
HAHA..

He is 2 yrs younger than me... BUt i still love his a lot a lot..
HAHAHA..
He is so so cute.. HAHAH...
His idol OHNO SATOSHI.. is juz a few days birthday away from him.. HAHAHA..

lastly, wish him happy birthday.. and hope to see more of his productions!!
WITH YAMADA RYOSUKE!! YES!! HAHAHA...

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU, CHINEN-KUN

Lots of love,
SiSi