Woke up suddenly, like something bad is going to happen soon.
Look at my phone and saw a missed call and a sms..

Looking at it.. the guilt just came up...
How can i went to sleep just like that?
I promise to wake up at 11pm to talk to her...
And now? It's this kind of fucking time..
Why?
Why doesnt my alarm wakes me up?!?!

Seriously, if i have the cash right now with me.. I would have cab it all the way down alr..(but forget to bank in the cheque)

So right now.. i can only feel guilty and worried about her...

Frankly speaking.. i will NEVER be angry with her if she write anything on the blog.

To her(you know who..)

Sweetie.. dont worry. i understand wad you mean.. thus i will not be angry or sad over it..
I am really sorry for not being able to be there for you when you nid me so badly...
Wad a bad friend.. haha.. so sry...

But still.. just rmb that if you still nid me.. i will still be there.. no matter how late it is.. But still sorry about today...

HAIS.. guilty strike liao..
Not feeling like sleeping le.. WHY?!

After reading her post.. i realised sth major has happened..
Not to scold anyone or sth..

But why cant end it like that?
I mean why keep having it tangling or dangle there?
I know i have NO RIGHTS to comment about this..
But this is MY BLOG.. and my THOUGHTS...

I think when you mean by promise not to contact means in a sense that when see each other, wun have any talkings.

FIRST.. broke this promise
SECOND.. makes things worse.
THIRD.. continue to make others sad.
FOURTH... i love i love i love.. but in the end? down the drain..

I mean why make so much effort in getting back when you know that you will ended up like that at the start?

If you want to suffer, why pull others in? Dont you think its selfish?
Sometimes.... (not to say i am sensitive enough) when people show a little dislike. maybe you should just stop.. and stop it..

whats the point of saying sth and NEVER do it?
Whats the whole purpose? yes.. there may be sometimes.. i also do that.. cuz you nid time to show it.. yo unid time to prove it..
But eventually, after sometimes... its been shown! its been shown out totally!!
not to say all the things i do.. but most?

i think i have enough of it..
If you ever dare to do anything that makes anyone around me suffer..
This is a challenge from me..
I dun give a fucking shit about oh.. its their own r/s problem.. let them settle themselves..

If he really has the ability.. he would have done it LAST YR.. and not drag and drag and drag until this yr..
Really spolitmooder..
Thought this yr would be amazing.. and ended up like this..

Hais.. this is how i feel.. so no offence to those who think that.. oh.. sisi's a bitch who bitch on her blog..
Well, wadeva.. THIS IS MY BLOG.. AND I HAVE THE RIGHTS TO SAY ANYTHING..
SO SPAMMERS.. GET LOST!!! after seeing this post..

Lots of love,
SiSi