Recently, my mum is ignoring juz cuz i choose dance when she ask me to give up.
I held on because i think DS is worthy.. I feel happy while dancing... I enjoyed it.
No matter how hard the routine is.. I will still enjoy it.

[below maybe a little attitude or bitchy, i dun care wad you say.. but i am juz speaking out of my mind.]
but for yesterday.. i feel like being a DS dancer is a ... loser?
Having SDZ being able to dance to any music.. the best part.. even to the KPOP nobody!
And where are all the seniors?
Clubhouse..
And what are they doing?
Dont know.. slack?
And what are all the juniors doing?
stoning, seeing how good the SDZ are, enjoying themselve.
Ask someone to go up and get disc.. and took her forever(sorry. not to blame you. but its a fact.)
Ya.. open house is nothing.. Look at the crows.. everyone thinks that SDZ are good.. No matter how much medals SPDS won.. we never get the limelight when SDZ are here...

Ya.. cuz the music type is different.. but why cant we be good in other dances too?
Like we did for kPOP?
and when its time to show off.. everyone just sit down there and stone..
even the organiser dun know go where le... how can this work?
other booths has seniors and juniors tending together..
we only have juniors..
this shows how important is open house....

Ya.. cca drive is the main thing.. but so wad? we will never win.. in the end.. SDZ will still take our limelight...

Can i tell anyone? No. i can only tell Beatrice.. will others even understand? I doubt so.. why?
Because they think i am a fool, trying to show off?
WHo knows? I think a lot of people are just wanting to see me fall and die..
Because no one is fucking cheering for me when i m dancin in the circle! they felt that they are being embarrassed..

Seriously at thatpoint of time.. i juz feel like.. its no point being a DS-ian when i hang on while my mum is giving me shit..

i bet today when i go ds.. people will be laughing at me.. saying how much a fool i am..

For now.. i think i can only tell myself.. i must dance and not quit cuz of jennie.... she did so much for me.. juz to get a partner for me.. i cant juz let it go like that..
so for jennie.. LOLS

Lots of love,
SiSi