Have been thinking a lot ever since the first time you talked to me after that incident.
I thought you were true about your apologies, which made me apologise too.

But what is it when you told me how disappointed you were of me?
Dont tell me that you are disappointed with me..
I am too..

In this world, there isnt only you the one who is feeling disappointed.
I feel disappointed too.
But do you see me shouting at you just because i am disappointed?
I kept quiet, everytime you disappoint me.
I kept it to myself, hoping that slowly you would start to realise it and change.

You would say.. You should learn to accept who i am..
Yes.. i did.. But it resulted in not being myself..
And this is not what i want.

Certain changes made is to make oneself better and not because of not loving what you are..
However, you are stubborn enough...

Yes.. changing is tough.. i totally agree to it.
But do you have determination?
Do you really consistently change, persistently change?

You dont..
Lets talk about clothings then..
After we have told you about the top you wear..
you will only change for 2 days.. and after that, you will NEVER EVER wear it back again..
till the next time we asked you to..

Why?
Its such a small matter and issue.. but yet you still dun want to do it.
Instead of being disappointed with me now, why not explain?

You never let me know how you feel about whatever things i do..
All along, you just walk away, keep quiet.
THis made me dont know you at all.
Where is all the promises that you once made?
You promised that no secrets.
But you kept all your emotions to yourself..

Then, i will think that wadeva i do is correct and you are fine with it..
And now you are disappointed.
Isnt it all you who did it?

If you were to tell me once.. hey.. i dont like it..
But i still dont change.. well, i will definitely apologise for it..
But do you?

Please dont go around telling people you love me..
because from wadeva i see.. you dont..
If you do.. where are your actions?
WHere is it?

So stick with your choice, suck it up..

Love
Nanako