Where is everyone when i need understanding? I am sick.. yet no one gives a FUCKING DAMN to it.. Instead blame me for not replying sms.. What is this? When you are sick.. you dun reply my sms.. DO I GET ANGRY ABOUT IT? Instead, i waited PATIENTLY for your sms.. no matter how long is it.. For others.. they dun reply my sms.. i get angry.. cuz they dun have VALID REASON... whereas for you... YOU HAVE ONE. you dun see me complaining.. Why cant you somehow understand that sometimes, people dun reply you theres a reason.. its not as if i wait till THE NEXT DAY then i reply you? you get angry.. what is this?

If you think that I am faking.. then juz wadeva.. even when i text you saying i'm sorry.. you also dun give a damn to it.. into replying it.. what is this? It juz sleeping so i never reply you.. and you get CUZ OF THIS?!

I dun understand.. really.. i dun understand AT ALL...


People get angry with me.. even when i am sick.. Yes.. maybe i just deserve being sick? Even if i fainted.. people laugh at me, saying I AM A LOSER.. how nice is that?

No one really understand me.. I dun say.. i choose not to say.. not cuz of wad.. cuz i dun wan people to get worried for me.. if i were to say.. who knows... people might think i am trying to gain sympathy? Maybe saying i am trying to gain pity? And then a whole lot of thing is going to happen again...

I'm tired.. i reallly AM tired..
If only i can have a break... i juz hope people will stop being angry with me.. there are so many things happening in my mind tll I DUN KNOW WAD and HOW to say..

What can i do? What shall i do? If you can tell me.. please let me know..

Cuz i just want to be happy.. and stop tearing every single day... the feeling inside me sucks... I think for you.. can you please think for me too?

Or maybe i should just do like wad my mummy told me juz now.. juz to die..
How nice.. your own mother asking you to die when she knows how unwell you are..
How nice.. you own mother told you that you deserve being sick..

What kind of motherly love is that?

Or maybe i am fated not to get any love from anyone..

This yr just sucks..