Went for a camp from 20th till 23rd dec... This 4Day 3Night camp, somehow changed my life, my perspective of view.. and also the thinking i used to have.

This is the first time, that i feel SO guilty about what i've done to my parents for the past 18 years.. I have been a disobedient kid, a stubborn child that made my parents worry, Especially my Mother.. She has been disappointed with me AGAIN and AGAIN... and yet, she still loves me.. This made me guilty.. Especially after wad Matthias actually share about his story.. It made me cry.. It made me think about my actions that i always did. I regret.. I went to the toilet and actually called her and say that i love her, and i m sorry about it..

And this is the first time that i see that family are actually people who will be there for you NO MATTER WAD HAPPENED.. I would like to thank WAYNE for being there especially, Uncle DESMOND.. They were the ones that are really helping me out A LOT A LOT.. especially today...

And also, during the camp, I made many new friends.. Abigail, Lydia, Xinmun, Marcus and many more.. I really treasure the friendship that i had with them.. and hope that i would actually last long and forever..

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Its Christmas Eve.. And i went for celebration with friends and stuff. but due to some last minutes arrangement, i had to leave the celebration and go do that thing.. I felt really guilty for leaving my friends, especially Beatrice back..

I have to say.. that.. yes, i broke my promise... But i was also in a difficult position..

One side is about whether to break my promise, OR, to listen to wad my parents wanted me to do...

Cuz both will make me feel bad.. and feel guilty.. I have to say, this isnt a good choice to make.. and i m really upset about having to make this kinda choice.. cuz both are the most impt people in my life..

Yes, understanding and accepting is different.. But there will definitely be things that are last minute.. I can understand about him leaving, breaking his promise.. and how upset you are about that.. thats why you are so disappointed with me.. But your words hurt me VERY MUCH..

If i were to stand in your shoes, if today's incident were to happen to me.. e.g you promised me about a month ago, and your parents suddenly ask you to go do something on that exact day.. I am very sure that i will not get upset cuz i know that parents do expect certain things from us.. and its not really nice to not do it..

Maybe because wadeva i did add on to wadeva just happened.. but i just have to say, you hurt me too.. not to compare or blame who started first..but i just hope that this issue will juz pass away.. and soon, we will be back to friends again..

Would like to thank JUNHAO for sitting by me today when i am like crying like siao.. and sorry for ruining your day..

Would like to thank UNCLE JUSTIN, UNCLE DESMOND, WAYNE, AUNT JUDITH and many many friends who are there for me.. I do feel a lot better now.. And thank you so so much..

It's CHRISTMAS~ so merry christmas!!

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Grandma is sick.. people, pls pray for me that she will get well soon.. And from now on, i dun wan to live with regret...

GRANDMA, I LOVE YOU XD


Lots of love
Nanako