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| Disappointment ar...
Sunday, February 20, 2011 | 12:32 AM | 0 Sweet Cupcake
Can you believe that i just feel that i am being cheated/betrayed.. like seriously.. I have never had this kind of feeling for a very long time.. but today is the first time that i feel this way man.. Things happened. and it just made me feel disgusted to the world..1. Yes.. we were on a bet.. Since you DONT DARE to accept it.. then just STFU.. I am talking to my maid.. you add on into the conversation.. and then you raise up your volume.. and then i get scolded.. COME ON.. You call this fair? You think this is fair for me? And guess what my mum say? Joke must have limit.. cannot always mention parents.. What else can i say? What else can i rebut on? But the fact is that.. who started it? I am talking to MY MAID.. you cut in.. And i got the scolding? And now you dont feel guilty or sorry at all? 2. After you come to my family, our lives got ruined.. My sister and I had to give in so many things.. and we didnt complain or what so ever.. But you just took it for granted.. Sometimes, I SAID that i dont like it.. But you still do it.. You poke me.. BUT.. i cannot poke back? I do so, you make a big fuss out of it.. What is this? Hello.. Who started it man.. So many times alr.. I tell you NICELY, dotn wanna listen.. Wait till i say it in a unhappy tone.. you give that kind of sickening face.. 3. Yes.. I'm stupid to trust you.. To even TREAT YOU AS MY FRIEND.. i think i must have owe you for my past life.. thats why i am getting this back.. You always made me make choice that i dont want to do.. You force me to make a decision.. And when i make that decision, i made people hate me.. And when that person hate me, you are back to him as good as new.. So after you have taught him a lesson, using me, you can throw me away? So I'm just someone whom you can use and then throw aside? How stupid am i to really trust you.. You always say that you are there for friends.. people respect you, you respect them.. But the thing is.. DO YOU RESPECT ME.. when i say no, DO YOU RESPECT MY DECISION? Instead you say.. you guys ar.. its wrong and yet you dont want to confront it.. But yes.. you dont have to pull me into this whole picture right? Seriously, How stupid i was to really believe that i dont need to feel bad.. or wad so ever.. Cuz why? you feel happy right? You feel better right? Maybe you dont need me AT ALL.. I am just a toy to you? Whatever.. I'm not interested.. Just feeling disappointed after seeing so much.. When you have him, i m just like WADEVER t you.. when you lose him, we are like GOLD to you.. Thats how disappointed i am right now.. Dont need to say you disappointed in me.. or dont need to say how much you dislike what i do.. Cuz thats vice versa.. i hate many things that you do too.. But i choose not to say.. cuz you will ended up getting unhappy.. I respect you and love you for who you are.. but you never love me for who i am.. instead, you get unhappy with me, you will hold grudge.. Seriously, i had enough.. You always say this not good, that not good. but sometimes, i really dont see what you say.. sometimes, you do things that you yourself hates others who do it.. Why can you do it.. yet others cannot? When others do it, why do you have to make a big fuss out of it? Why do you have to be so upset when others reject you? Others dont have their own freedom? Others dont have it? Yes.. you are a very good friend to have fun with.. and used to be a friend whom i can rely on.. but now, i guess, after that 2 incident, i dont know how to trust you not to make me into a position where i have to make TOUGH decision with a few seconds.. I am a HUMAN, not a GOD.. I have to think of consequences.. I have to think of whether i will pull others into this issue.. If you dont, please dont pull me in.. Take it as i beg you or wadeva.. its enough.. The No 1 and 2 are from the same person.. No 3 is a different person la.. P.S it might be you, it might not be you.. If you think its you, its you.. if you dont think its you.. then its not you.. Please dont come and KAOBEI me/ say anything like i post this kind of things on MY BLOG.. cuz you do too.. Lots of love Nanako |
