Yes i do.. even though we are 2 opposite people, i still love you like the first day i fell for you..

However, it seems like something is happening between us recently that i cannot force myself to neglect it or act like i couldnt see.

i feel that you are upset with me.. but you never say it out.. Instead, you kept quiet, you walk off, leaving me alone at a place and then come back. At that point of time, i felt like i LOST THE WHOLE WORLD.. I felt like I am a deserted dog. I felt that you could just walk away from me this easily.

I kinda miss the old me, where i have myself, and only me in mind. Maybe having you in my mind is sometimes a bad thing, but i never regret doing so.. But i just hope you could tell me what is really inside you. No matter if i made you angry or whatsoever, you could tell me straight. Because i love you for who you are. Maybe sometimes, i am too straightforward, or i am too blunt in the certain things i say, and it is something i cant change that quick, but please dont walk off like this.

Frankly speaking, sometimes, i dont know what to say to you. I am so scared and afraid that the next sentence that came out of my mouth might make you get angry with me. Because of me, just being so unintentional, it made you angry. Although at times, i feel that you are really unreasonable, i do understand that you are undergoing too many things. I should be more understanding by understanding you, listen to you, wait for you and be patient, instead of saying harsh things or nasty, straightforward things to you.

Sometimes, i look into the mirror and wonder: Where is Guo Sisi? Where is she? Why is she suddenly becoming like this? And everytime looking at our picture, i know the reason why i have become like this. Although sometimes, i might feel "why the hell am i taking all these?" but i know you are tolerating me and enduring me as well. Hence, i shouldnt expect much either.. isnt it?

Even though i miss my old self.. but myself changing for you is also not bad? i guess, i need sometimes, to think about how to change myself.. If only then.. we can be happier.. we can last longer.. i guess this is all i can say for today..





Lots of love, Nanako