11 days of 2013 has already passed and many things have happened. Of course, I have happened to seen many things too.

To many people, BFFs means friends who stayed with you through the rest of your life, no matter what happened. Today, I happened to realised that I had those moments too. But ever since I went to school, the word "drifting apart" came into our lives, I tend to realise that many things are not as simple as I thought it would be. I'm not going to say that they dont treasure me.. I believe they do for sure. But things are just not working right anymore. We get tired of talking to each other because we feel that maybe THEY should know what we are thinking, THEY should know what is happening in our lives, THEY should be thinking in our point of view. It has all been ME in our head, which leads to this. When arguements became heaty, ego and pride stepped in, things just went crazy and chaotic.

There are times where I really really wonder who I can trust. Frankly speaking, only myself. I will never lie to myself for all I know. (Well, actually i do that all the time.. Opps) But anyway, after so many things happened, I just realise that NO ONE, can be trusted, AT ALL. One moment, they can say this, next moment, it could be something else. Sometimes, I dont even know WHO to trust. Sometimes, whoever tell me anything, I will ended up having it go in from 1 side, and then coming out from another side. I really feel that this is shitty man. Like seriously shitty! Like can you believe that you cant trust anymore in the world except your family and your dog? This is just pathetic! Yea, I know right? This is pure pathetic.

It's not I want to be pesstimistic, but this is the fact. And it is something that cannot be denied.

Maybe one day, i will realise that there is someone in the world who DOESN'T lie at all, not a single bit? I hope. :)




Lots of love,
TongTong